Friday, July 31, 2015

Week One - Friday Check-In

Week One weigh-in:
07/31/2015:           no change
Total lost:            - 5 pounds
Current Weight: 225 pounds

Well, I have to admit that not losing any weight the first week is a little discouraging but let's look at the positives.. I stayed within my calorie goal from Monday (when I started this again) until today, I worked I eating healthier and I tracked, weighed and measured my food.

I need to accept that the scale won't always show me what I want. Some weeks it'll be up and some down and that's just how it works.

So what are my plans for this coming week?

1) Schedule gym time and go to it 4 out of 7 days this week.
2) make at least one fully homemade dinner
3) research ways to add more protein to my diet
4) a lot of walking to prepare for the 5K. I know that it's not as long a distance compared to marathons and half marathons but I still need to get ready so the plan this week is to walk 3.1 miles at least 3 times in the coming week.
Also, I'm walking the 5K NOT running! I give kudos to those who can run it but that's definitely not me lol.
5) Stick with this coming month's step challenge and work much harder to meet the daily step amounts. Walking on the treadmill in an air conditioned gym will definitely help with that!
6) Oh and get new body measurements. I keep forgetting to do that!

I think that's all I have for now!

Thursday, July 30, 2015


It's very frustrating when I have to unexpectedly change my plans. Yesterday I had to cancel my trainer and rearrange my entire afternoon and evening with about an hours notice in order to get Andy to his show. Instead of working out and eating a healthy, homemade dinner I ended up driving to Rutland and sitting in Panera and then, eventually, driving home. I still ate healthy but it wasn't the same.

And on top of my frustration you have my trainers' frustration because I had to cancel on her with almost no warning. And I absolutely don't blame her, it just sucks doing that to other people. Add in the horrible heat and humidity, my bad knee bending the wrong way and not getting home until almost midnight last night and I'm not really a happy camper.

And we have to do it all over again today.

Now, to make it clear, I am not frustrated with Andy. I am frustrated with the situation with his car. It's not his fault and I am his parent and it's my responsibility to help him but, damn it, I wanted to see my trainer and get my workout figured out!!

I'm hoping things will settle down once the play is over (last show is this Sunday) but then we have a bunch of filled weekends (including a 5K color run/walk which I'll post about later!) and I have to prepare for Gabriel entering high school. Let's not even talk about how stressed out I am about that. I know he has a good team working with him but still... it's a new school, a new team, a new schedule, a new everything! And much harder classes with a lot more expected from him.

So what is my plan to deal with all this frustration without blowing up and getting mad at people?

Well, I guess first I need to accept that things happen and sometimes plans need to be changed no matter how annoying it is. Accepting that is really hard for me and I've been working on it for a very long time but I'm seeing little improvements so that's something.

Second I want to enter my workouts onto the calendar so they're in there like appointments. I think that will make me miss them less and it will make the rest of my family take them more seriously. "Oh, you need this, this and that... you'll have to wait because I have a scheduled workout first." Trainer or no trainer this absolutely needs to happen!

Third, I guess I need to just breathe and deal with whatever comes my way.

And fourth... keep posting because it really helps!

PS... I wanted a pastry sooooooooo badly at Panera last night but didn't have one because it didn't fit into my daily calories. We'll see how strong I am tonight!

Tuesday, July 28, 2015


So I've discovered a few things in the last two days...

1) I've forgotten how to do most of my "push day" workout (the first workout I've did with my trainer when I first started at the gym).

2) My trainer is awesome and will give me a quick overview of the exercises I can't remember tomorrow after work.

3) I really, really, really don't like cottage cheese :/ I was hoping it would be my to-go protein food but, ugh, no. So that takes out eggs, Greek yogurt (except the whipped ones but they have tons of sugar so doesn't that defeat the purpose?) and now cottage cheese. So... maybe, actual cheese? I don't know.

4) The high pain days can get to the point where lightly touching my thighs feels like I'm punching them (yeah, I get to enjoy that today).

5) I am able to keep myself motivated as long as I take it one little section at a time.

6) I LOVE the organic oatmeal I got and am actually looking forward to eating it again, especially with blueberries!

I think that does it for now!

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Sometimes It Helps to Start Again

So here we are again, back at the beginning.

The last few months I've kind of wandered around aimlessly, eating all sorts of crap, ignoring the scale and the tightening of my clothes, not really focused on health and diet at all, not blogging, posting step challenges while not sticking to them myself, promising myself new start after new start after new start while doing nothing about it and hiding my head in the sand as I grew bigger and bigger.

It's time to stop hiding.

I am officially only five pounds away from my original starting weight. I have officially not tracked my calories for more than a day or two for months. I have officially eaten myself back into my larger clothes.

I am officially done with this crap.

I am sucking it up, admitting to my failures and starting again.

But, by some miracle, it hasn't all be a failure. I joined the gym and got a trainer whom I love and who is getting my butt into shape. There will be a LOT of gym and workout posts!

I no longer eat any kind of chips or bagged junk food at all and I don't miss it. I no longer eat pints of ice cream in one sitting. I no longer eat candy bars (I save the calories for a small piece of really good chocolate instead) and I finally gave up those delicious store bought bakery muffins, but there is still some much work to be done.

In order to start fresh I decided to go through and get rid of posts that didn't fit like all the short, boring ones. I kept all the well written ones reposted from old blogs but this is a new start... like a new notebook at the start of school.

I plan to post daily with step challenge counts, workouts, thoughts, opinions, motivational stuff, injuries and pain and whatever else comes to mind.

I know I am more motivated and accountable when I have to post a weigh-in and workouts. I am definitely more accountable when I know people will read and see.

It sucks that I let myself get to this point but, hey, there is always a time and place for a new start and maybe this time I can keep it going!

So welcome back. I know I'm glad to be here!