So here we are again, back at the beginning.
The last few months I've kind of wandered around aimlessly, eating all sorts of crap, ignoring the scale and the tightening of my clothes, not really focused on health and diet at all, not blogging, posting step challenges while not sticking to them myself, promising myself new start after new start after new start while doing nothing about it and hiding my head in the sand as I grew bigger and bigger.
It's time to stop hiding.
I am officially only five pounds away from my original starting weight. I have officially not tracked my calories for more than a day or two for months. I have officially eaten myself back into my larger clothes.
I am officially done with this crap.
I am sucking it up, admitting to my failures and starting again.
But, by some miracle, it hasn't all be a failure. I joined the gym and got a trainer whom I love and who is getting my butt into shape. There will be a LOT of gym and workout posts!
I no longer eat any kind of chips or bagged junk food at all and I don't miss it. I no longer eat pints of ice cream in one sitting. I no longer eat candy bars (I save the calories for a small piece of really good chocolate instead) and I finally gave up those delicious store bought bakery muffins, but there is still some much work to be done.
In order to start fresh I decided to go through and get rid of posts that didn't fit like all the short, boring ones. I kept all the well written ones reposted from old blogs but this is a new start... like a new notebook at the start of school.
I plan to post daily with step challenge counts, workouts, thoughts, opinions, motivational stuff, injuries and pain and whatever else comes to mind.
I know I am more motivated and accountable when I have to post a weigh-in and workouts. I am definitely more accountable when I know people will read and see.
It sucks that I let myself get to this point but, hey, there is always a time and place for a new start and maybe this time I can keep it going!
So welcome back. I know I'm glad to be here!