And then there's really high pain days. The kind of days where you can barely move, every muscle and joint crying for relief as you try to survive until it's time to sleep and, hopefully, not feel anything.
And then there's my lower back/hip the last day and a half. It doesn't just hurt at this point in time, it burns and stabs and screams as well. And it's not horrible all the time, it comes and goes, sometimes in waves as I sit and being a constant as I walk and move in any direction, especially getting up and down. Let's not even talk about how painful it is to get out of the car because I have to lift up my leg.
I didn't even do anything major to hurt it this time. I vacuumed. That was it. I vacuumed for maybe 15 seconds and that was all it took to go from "okay" to "OMG it hurts so badly I can barely move and breath."
I thought Sunday was bad with everything hurting but this is so much worse because the pain is focused on one general area and it doesn't just hurt, it's way beyond "hurt" at this point in time.
I put some heat on it last night and that helped a little but for the most part I'm downing Advil and Bayer Back and Body Pain and lovingly thinking about the Tylenol with codeine I have stashed away for emergencies. I absolutely hate taking it because it makes me feel really sick but it's there if I need it. I'm just hoping not to need it anytime soon.
Sleeping was really awful too and I kept waking up from the stabs of pain so I'm exhausted on top of everything else.
Looking back, I can't even think of anything that could have set it off; I haven't tripped, I haven't fallen, I haven't stepped in any holes, I haven't had any major workouts... except when I went on the bike path a few days ago and had to practically crawl back to the car. Maybe that set it off? I don't know but a lot of the time the pain comes out of nowhere. I'm fine and then boom, something seizes up and hurts really, really badly. And then it stops and something else hurts. It's hard to think of a time when nothing hurts. In fact, I'd be hard pressed to find one of those times at all.
I'm guessing stress doesn't help and there's always some of that going on. Maybe I need to go see the chiropractor again. Maybe I need to suck it up and go get acupuncture like Charles suggests (I keep meaning too, just haven't done it yet). Maybe I need yoga and relaxation or maybe I need to get myself to the gym for specific exercises or the therapy pool or something. It's pointless to go to the doctor because all they can do is give me some meds and send me to physical therapy again which I've done for several years now, on and off, and can do the exercises they give at home. I don't know what else to do.
What I do know is that I'm in pain almost all the time but, usually, that pain doesn't affect my day to day life because I'm used to it by now. But this hip pain is knocking me on my butt and really affecting my life. On a scale of 1-10 I would give it a 25 at its worse. It hurts so badly and I want it to stop already!!!
How do I make it stop?