As you guys know, I am very honest on this blog. I don't lie. I don't cover up gains. I admit my mistakes and my bad choices so here goes...
Halloween candy... please DON'T say "I told you so"... I already know!
After all my research and blogging and everything, I still decided that today would be a cheat day. I allowed myself a Big Mac (been craving one forever but NO fries), one of those small McDonald's soft serve ice creams and a few pieces of Halloween candy. With the McDonald's I specifically went with something that was a single serving each because then I couldn't binge on it. The candy, on the other hand, is bingeable, but I don't even want to see it right now.
Within 10-15 minutes I thought I was going to pass out. I can't remember the last time I felt that horribly sick. I became dizzy and lightheaded, my arms, legs and head felt like they weighed 50 pounds each. I thought I was going to throw up and pass out and I had to lay down before that happened. My heart rate was up like crazy, my head was starting to hurt and I realized that I had made a very, very big mistake.
I'm assuming all that was from the massive rush of carbs and sugar into a body that hasn't seen more than 20 grams of sugar and under 50 grams of carbs in at least nine days. I actually ended up falling asleep for a few hours and now I'm up again. I don't feel as sick as before but definitely not good either. There's also a large bowl of candy on top of the microwave and I don't want to even look at it at this point in time.
So have I learned my lesson? Maybe. I supposed if I really, really, really wanted a piece of candy I could have planned ahead and gotten something small and wonderful but I went a little crazy with it. Okay, a lot crazy with it.
Do I plan to do it again? NO!
I only have one time coming up when a really great dessert will be up for grabs and that's next weekend when we go to Sarah's for the weekend for Gabriel's birthday. Her grocery store has this amazing bakery and we always get one small, individual dessert each when we're there. I want part of that dessert but I don't want to get a lot and I don't want to get sick. Can I have a small part of it or will my body react this badly to any shot of sugar above what I'm used too?
I'm not sure right now and I do plan to do some serious research on it before next weekend. I also realize today knocked me out of ketosis and it will take me several days to get back there so I'm ready for the scale on Thursday. I made this decision knowing all this (except for the getting sick part) and I'm prepared for the consequences.
But I have no desire to do this again. Lesson learned.