...for me anyway. I have no plans for anything extra for New Year's Eve and maybe one small piece of tiramisu for my birthday which will fit into my carb count. Everything else is business as usual.
But now I get to deal with the holiday weight gain and, yes, it was my decision and my choice to eat all that food so I am fully prepared to face the consequences. The scale has gone up by a few pounds and I don't know how much it will go down by Thursday but I will weigh in then like I always do and just go with whatever it shows.
It's interesting to me that out of all the food I ate (way too much of it for future reference) I wasn't obsessed with any of it. It didn't feel like this huge thing, I didn't circle the fridge until I ate it all, I didn't think about it nonstop... it was like I was eating like a "normal" person. I think food may have, after so many years, lost its hold on me.
There's been cheesecake and ice cream and candy in the house since Christmas and I don't want any of it. I had the Christmas food that I gave myself permission to enjoy and now I'm done and I'm okay with it. It's not calling out to me. It's not this massive, obsessive thing. It's just food. And that is huge for me!
I do have to admit that there have been other consequences besides the weight gain. I've had an awful 5 day headache since the 25th. I don't feel well, I'm exhausted and kind of out of it. It's improving the further away I get from the "carb" day so it's interesting to see the difference in how I'm feeling based on what I eat.
So... was it worth it? Yes and no. I ate way too much to the point of being sick and I didn't feel good after doing it but I finally saw that it didn't have the same power over me that it once had. And, let's be honest here, it was freaking delicious! So am I going to do this again? No. No, I don't think so. I already have plans for what to do differently next time so my head is back in the game!
I've been back on track since the 26th and plan to stay that way. I've also been working really hard at upping my protein like I planned and that's going pretty well too. This will probably cost me a week or weight loss and I'm definitely not looking forward to my weigh-in day but it is what it is. I made the choices, I will deal with them and I'm okay with that but now its back to the daily routine and hopefully watching the numbers on the scale keep going down.