"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."
Okay... so, first of all my sister suggested that "cheat" day has a negative connotation to it, which it does, but I'm still working on a better name... "relaxed" day maybe? "High carb" day? I don't know so for now it's still "cheat" day to simplify this post.
I started out with such good intentions and plans. I thought I had it all figured out and then along came the first cheat day and off I went and it hasn't gotten much better except for the one week where I didn't have a cheat day at all, which turned out to be the only week I lost weight in a month.
I have been eating less on the cheat days and they have been kept to one day a week so I made progress there but, obviously, I'm still doing it "wrong" for my body so I've spent a lot of time thinking about what I was doing, how and why and how it's affecting me.
Why am I eating healthy food six days a week but suddenly crap food is fine for me on day seven? The food doesn't change that day. The way my body reacts to it doesn't change that day. The only thing that changes is me giving myself permission to put crap and junk into my body. Why the hell am I doing that? Well, basically, I'm doing it because I can.
It's not healthy and it's harmful to me and it needs to stop, especially since I'm not able to do moderation well right now. And feeling like absolute crud for days after a cheat day is also a serious sign that it's not a good ideas.
Now, I had all sorts of plans that I posted about the last time I talked about the "cheat" day back in mid-February, but I pretty much failed all those plans. I'm still going nuts with a lot of food on cheat days because it's there and because once that sugar and those carbs hit my system I can't make myself stop. So, once again, the plan needs to change but hey, live and learn, right?
I've been thinking on this for a couple of weeks now, like seriously mulling it over, trying to come up what will work for me in the long-term, what I can live with and what I can live without. I don't want to take away a day to be able to have some food I don't have during the week but I also don't want to go back to eating crap so here's what I have so far...
I can have my "cheat" day but the food I eat has to stay healthy. It can have more carbs and even sugar (if it's fruit for example) but it has to be at least somewhat healthy. So... something like watermelon or a sweet potato or some really great, high quality chocolate (a piece, not a bar) or whatever else looks good. BUT it can no longer be junk food. And like my doctor said, if you're calling it "junk" food, why in the world are you putting it into your body?
Good question, doctor, good question.
Basically, I need to go back to the beginning and eat the way I did when I started low carb. I think that's my best bet to seeing weight loss again and making myself healthier so let's think on this...what did I cut out when I started low carb that has slowly found it's way back into my mouth?
Well, and please keep in mind that some of these I've only had once or twice in the last six months but they seriously need to be cut off anyway. This is like confession for me or something lol.
So what are we looking at here...occasional pastries (that went from one small pastry "bite" to full size pastries at several on cheat day), crappy, cheap chocolate, chips that I didn't even enjoy but ate because they were there, cake, pudding, parfait cups (You know what ELSE everybody likes? Parfaits! Have you ever met a person, you say, "Let's get some parfait," they say, "Hell no, I don't like no parfait."? Parfaits are delicious! Parfait's gotta be the most delicious thing on the whole damn planet! ), sorry got distracted there for a minute lol, um.. let me think... ice cream (not the high quality kind), donuts, Little Debbie's (and we're not talking one snack here, we're talking one box)... basically you can see where this is going. Almost all those things are very high sugar and high carb and that's just awful for me.
So they all have to go. I need to go back to the beginning and start being strict again. My weight loss has lagged for a month now (I bet it moved this week because I didn't have a cheat day last week) and I've been feeling sick and unwell and in pain. My headaches are coming back, not feeling good daily is back, being in a lot more pain is back...and I know for a fact that it was all under better control when all that crap was out of my diet.
So this is what it comes down to. Healthy, low carb food with an occasional HEALTHY higher carb item on my "relaxed" day. The only exceptions will be special occasions (like our Easter for example) and even then a treat is allowed, not an entire day.
I've done this before and I know I can do this again and if that means taking away moderation for now and getting stricter then so be it. A healthy body will be so worth it!