Just as a warning there's going to be a lot of whining and complaining in this entry because that's the kind if mood I'm in.
To fully explain this week let's go all the way back to Thursday night. So, I had a cheat day on Thursday like normal. It wasn't as bad as last time but it was still a little out of control and a lot of high carb foods but my body has handled it okay before so I just mentally kicked myself, promised to do better, and moved on with my night.
Then I went to bed and that's where it all went wrong. There are some times, maybe a couple of times a year, when I get horrible, horrible abdomen pain after eating too much/too high carb/ too something. I'm never sure what food will set it off but usually it's a combo of high calorie/super high carb. The pain is always when I'm laying on my right side, if I'm laying on my left I'm usually okay and this is bad, bad pain. Like a 8-10 out of 10. And it's not gas pain, it's different from that but as long as I'm laying on my right side it's a constant and it's very, very, very bad. So bad that I've considered going to the ER for it.
What normally happens is that I move to my left side and it mostly goes away. Some nights (it's only at night so far) that works perfectly and some night, like last Thursday, it just gets lower but still hurts. And then, on top of the pain, I could NOT fall asleep. I know I took all my meds correctly but I slept for maybe 2 hours, tops, and the pain didn't stop until about 5 am.
So I needed to drop the car off to be repaired that morning and take Charles to work. I stood up to do that and nearly passed out from the lightheadedness and dizziness. If you guys have read my blog you know that sometimes that happens to me but this was so bad, so fast, it seemed to come out of nowhere. There was no way I could drive, hell, there was no way I could even walk and I pretty much staggered back to bed while Charles dealt with all the daily details and Andy took Gabriel to school. I even had to call in to work.
I was okay while I was laying down but walking was nearly impossible. In fact, I fell when I went into the bathroom to use it because the world went black for a moment. I bruised and skinned my bad knee and landed on my hands just barley missing the toilet with my head.
Thank God it finally got better around noon so I was able to go to work but I felt horrible and lightheaded all weekend. Now, normally, I would think it was my sodium again but I'm having no issues at all using the bathroom so that's not it. I honestly believe that it leads back to all the food I ate because, maybe my body just cant take that amount of crap anymore?
I don't know, but I do know I have to keep it from happening again so I have to get this binge eating under control one way or another.
And I know, guys, I know! I know the "cheat" crap needs to slow down or even stop. I KNOW. Last year I was able to stop ALL junk food for Lent and it starts next week so maybe I'll use that since it's worked before. I know what has to be done, I just can't seem to make myself do it.
I'm also starting to wonder if it could be my gallbladder being affected by what I eat so I guess I should probably call my doctor this week and get checked out :/ Also, the massive weather and air pressure changes are not helping at all so that's definitely a part of it too!
In any case, yesterday I felt good enough to work out but today I'm back to feeling somewhat lightheaded and unwell and my legs feel shaky and weak so today is going to be another rest day.
On top of all that I am SO freaking sick of low carb. I'm sick of chicken and turkey and shrimp and fish and all of it. I'm not quitting it but I desperately need some new, easy, high protein foods before I go crazy and go back to chugging carbs!
I'm really hoping I'm back to feeling well enough to work out tomorrow!