After giving this a lot of thought and consideration I've decided to go back to strict low carb/keto. There are several reasons for this, the main being how I felt physically and mentally when keeping it strict and the second being my weight.
I went back and reread a lot of my old posts after starting low carb and I really miss how I felt then. My headaches were lighter and gone more often, I slept better at night and didn't nap during the day anymore. I had a ton of energy, my joints and body hurt less, I was losing more weight and inches, and the biggest thing of all, I wasn't binging.
Low carb had turned off that binging switch in my head and adding in more carbs and all the cheating I've done has turned it back on and I desperately need to turn it off again.
I was also in a better place emotionally and I'm starting to believe that low carb is what my body and mind need so as of tomorrow I'm back to it the same way I was when I first started it (only with a lot more knowledge under my belt).
I still want to be able to incorporate low carb veggies and fruit and plan for those in my daily schedule. In fact, planning ahead for days and weeks is on the of things I did right when I started low carb and I'm going back to that as well.
I also noticed that I got bored eating the same stuff over and over again so I plan to check out new low carb foods and meals and actually make some recipes which I've been meaning to do for months now anyway. Sunday was my "recipe blog post" day but I've skipped that for over a month now so I'm going to start making those posts again but going with specifically low carb recipes and not stuff I can't actually eat.
I'm really looking forward to getting back on track here and I think it's going to help me a great deal both physically and emotionally!