So, to be perfectly honest I broke my "no cheating' thing yesterday and went over my calories and my macros.
I had some gelato and some apple pie. I did not eat an entire pint of gelato or an entire pie, or even half a pie. I had a suitable portion and I left it at that.
The big thing here is that I did NOT binge! I did not go crazy and eat everything in sight and I was able to put the food away and not go back to it and finish it off and that is huge for me!
So, I don't think I'm going to continue a formal "no cheating" thing. One of my long-term goals outside of the weight loss is to be able to eat in moderation and to find balance. Yesterday I had balance.
Does this mean that every day when I eat something high-ish carb I'll have that balance? No, sadly, probably not. I think I will have to work at it every day.
So what made yesterday different? Well, I agreed with myself (thank you self) that if I were to get those food I would have a small portion of it. I checked and double checked with myself that I wasn't buying it for a binge.
Honestly, normally on a cheat day, I know I'm buying food for a binge. I consider that cheat day to be a binge day and I buy numerous foods knowing I would be stuffing all of those foods into my body that day.
I think one of the differences was that this wasn't a cheat day. It was just a regular day where I decided to have something yummy and high carb. I wasn't buying this food to last one day and then that would be it until next week. I bought it because I wanted some of it. I did not buy it to eat all of it.
I don't want to have cheat days anymore because calling it a cheat day and considering it a cheat day opens up this... this thing where I know I'll be adding food that's "not allowed" for the rest of the week and so I eat and eat and eat. I don't want to have foods that are not allowed. I don't want to know that I can only have it on Thursday and so I must stuff down as much as I can.
I want to be able to take food like gelato or some chocolate or something, take a small portion, eat it, enjoy it, log it and move on. I want to be able to treat this kind of food as just that, a treat. Something that can occasionally be enjoyed in a small portion and then put away.
This is my ultimate goal and this is what I was able to to do yesterday. Now I just need to keep going.
On top of all this stuff, I've been having a lot of pain in my hip/thigh area and my knee is still acting up here and there so I haven't worked out in two days except to work on the plank. I should be up to a minute on the plank by now and I'm not so I'm adding it to most of my workout days as extra practice and today I was able to hit 47 seconds on the plank so I'm slowly getting there!
I'm really, really hoping to be able to do leg day tomorrow and to keep working on this food thing!