New Restarting Weigh-In:
11/20/2016: +4.4 pounds
Total lost: 22.2 pounds
Current Weight: 207.8 pounds
Today is finally my official, new restart of getting back to health, fitness and weight loss. I had originally planned to do low carb/keto but I'm going to start with moderate carb and see if I can lose weight with that (under 120 grams total a day). I think one of the reasons I keep cheating is because of how unhappy I am with low carb/keto so I'll start this way and evaluate as I go. I also eat healthier when I'm allowed more carbs (more fruit, veggies, healthy grains, etc vs. protein shakes and protein bars) and health needs to become more important to me than weight loss (I'm sure I'll feel that way eventually).
I know I was supposed to restart on Thursday, and then Friday and then Saturday but it didn't happen for a variety of reasons but it is happening today.
But, as you can see, my official restarting weight is 207.8 which is 4.4 pounds heavier than my Thursday weigh-in.
I think there are a couple of reasons for this: part of it is definitely water weight gain, part is how badly and how much I ate on Thursday and Friday and part is I think I had a big water weight "whoosh" loss from Wednesday to Thursday which is why it showed that smaller number (that happens to me about once a week). In any case, this is where I'm restarting from whether it's water weight or not so I am going to go forward from here and not obsess over it too much.
I'm going to continue with my regular Thursday weigh-ins from here on out and the plan is moderate carb, calorie counting and exercise.
I still have to see my psychiatrist Tuesday morning (I'm still really, really down) and I'm sure they'll be changing my meds around but even if I'm having med issues and can't get in a workout I can definitely eat healthy and count calories.
I'm going to take this thing in little steps and goals, some days will be okay and some I'll have to struggle through every hour but I did this before and I know I can do it again. I just need to stick with it no matter what and I know I can do it.
There can't be any more excuses or reasoning my way into crap food or just giving up. I have to do this; for my health, my mental state, the way I look, the way I feel when I see myself... for everything. I HAVE TO do this.
That's all there is to it!