I have gained back a very large amount of weight, way, way larger than I originally thought and I found out by replacing the batteries in my scale.
Yeah... 206.8 is way, way, way more than 197.2. I guess I should have been able to tell from the way my clothes were fitting and how I looked but maybe a part of me just wanted to pretend a little while longer or something... I don't know.
So now I know (yes, I weighed some other things out to make sure the weight was correct this time). So what is my plan?
Well, I can huddle in a corner and cry but that isn't going to accomplish very much.
I could drown my sorrows in carbs and ice cream but that will just make things worse.
I could sit here and whine and complain but how is that going to help me?
No, what I'm going to do us to restart low carb with NO cheat days or snacks or treats or anything. I've obviously had enough of those to last me a long, long time.
I'm going to track, weigh, measure and preplan everything with no breaks and no excuses until Christmas Day when we have Chinese food. I'm not even sure that I'm eating anything special for Gabriel's birthday.
It's true that the weeks are going to become a little monotonous here with food but I need to get this thing under control now. I am 17 pounds heavier than at my most recent lowers weight in June and I didn't just pass back over 200 lbs. I skyrocket my way past it and need to bring it back down again. It's really not an option. I HAVE to do this for my health.
I'm going to keep breaking this thing up into small weight goals again. Weight goal one is to get to 205 lbs, then to anywhere under 200 lbs to hit onederland again and then keep going in five pound increments. Like I said, my lowest weight so far has been 189. 8 and that was at the end of June so I have 17 pounds to lose to get there.
It really sucks to have to re-lose all this weight but I have no one to blame but myself. There were only so many junk and crap foods I could eat before the weight started piling back on and I should have gotten it back under control months ago but I did what I did and it is what it is.
Now is the time to take a deep breath, square my shoulders back and start again. There is no other acceptable option.