So... something really interesting occurred to me that probably should have when I was making the original post about this but didn't... anyway...
...in my last post I averaged the calories and carbs and then divided them by the non-cheating days every week and counted all of those BUT what happens if I include the cheat day amounts?
Now, I can't really do that officially because I did not track what I ate and how much of it on cheat days (because if I don't log it it didn't happen, right?). Anyway, let's say I wanted to add them in to figure out my entire, complete average for the week. Knowing what I know of how much I probably ate, I would have averaged way, way, way more than 30-50 grams of carbs a day and way, way more calories.
So does it make a difference of how much I eat a day versus how much I eat in a week? Does the weekly average overrule the daily numbers or do daily numbers win out? Isn't it great when your brain won't stop circling the same questions over and over again? No, wait, that might just be my brain right now :/
Anyway, I think I need to keep experimenting with carbs and other macros (but I'm pretty satisfied with my calorie amounts) without cheat days being involved. Luckily for me there won't be any more cheating until Christmas (or else I owe Gabriel $20) and ever then, it's not a huge, binging cheat, it's just Christmas which gives me another 14 days to play around, keep track and see what happens. It helps that I weigh myself every day just to see how it's going (I only count it once a week though).
Oh, and I do NOT want to go back to cheating after Christmas. I need to get rid of the whole cheating/binging mentality and I am working on it. I just may need more help than just me which is why I should probably call my therapist sometime soon (that and the depression that is still hanging on).
Moving on, the last two days have been low calorie and low carb but I think tomorrow I may up the carbs just because I really want some sweet potato and some green veggies and berries.
I'm also hoping to be able to start working out again because the migraine is finally settling down but we'll see what happens tomorrow.
And so... the experimentation with food continues but, hey, I find all this stuff really interesting so I'm good with it and hope you guys are too!