Monday, May 29, 2017

Hi, My Name is Aleks and I'm a Carb & Sugar Addict...

Today I start to carb and sugar detox again.

So far this week I've spent 3 days out of 4 eating crap and carbs and gelato and pizza and bread (so much bread) and chocolate and I'm not even going to list the rest. I don't want to get back on the scale because I don't want to know how high it is now... I HAVE to get back to low carb/keto without cheating or I will feel miserable and keep eating crap forever.

I think I'm in so much physical pain the last few days not just because of the weather but because of the "food-like products" I've been eating. And please don't ask me why I spent 3 days eating crap, I don't have a good answer.

So, I detoxing again and going back to strict low carb. I'm not restarting my MFP count or my blog count or any of that. I'm just detoxing AGAIN and this time I have to make it stick. I have to.

If I were an alcoholic, would I have a weekly cheat day with beer or wine? If I was a drug addict, could I have just a little heroin once a week? NO. So why am I allowing it with food.

I AM A CARB & SUGAR ADDICT and I I HAVE to put an end to it. It's not just about weight loss anymore. It's about my health and my life.

I've done this before and I know I can do it again.

I have too.

That's what it comes down to.

I have to.

Motivational Monday

Saturday, May 27, 2017

Gym, Exercise, Food and Carbs ~ EDITED & CHANGED

I am going back to the gym!! 

After going over my budget quiet a few times yesterday and the day before to try and figure out what I can do about the new cost of my most important psych med (I'm not even going to get into all that crap right now... hours on the phone with my doctor, my shrink, the pharmacy, two insurances, pharmacy again, shrink, again only to find out there's nothing that can be done to lower the cost so I'm going to try and let it go for now) and cutting back on a couple of non-essential things I figured that if I give up Dunkin Donuts for good (I was still getting it on the two mornings a week I go to work) I can afford my gym membership! So... wooohoo... I'm going back to the gym!

At the gym I work out about 2 hours a day (and LOVE it). It's my happy place. The only issue I run into time and time again is feeling like I need more carbs, especially after my workouts! My favorite thing to eat after workouts is a bowl of organic "Cheerios" with blueberries and almond milk or some sweet potatoes, squash and a chunk of protein like chicken or fish. So some days that I work out my carb amount would go up over 100 grams of net carbs. The problem with this is that even with trying to keep it at healthy carbs, it would set off my cravings and desires to binge.

Yes, it was still low carb (not keto and not very low carb, more like "liberal" low carb) and it's not like it was a bowl of ice cream or a bag of chips but it often led to the ice cream and chips :/

So, I'm not quiet sure what to do. I love how I feel on low carb but can I still be under 50 grams of net carbs and be healthy while working out. Days that I don't work out I'll still keep my carbs at 50 net carbs and under but what about those other days.

Do I need that cereal with blueberries or can I have something lower carb that will take care of the same cravings and give me energy and let me get in shape?

I don't want to fall into the cravings/addiction trap again because I just cant control it so... I don't know.

I guess that for the first week or two I'm going to have to just take it meal by meal and day by day as I figure out what my body needs and what it can handle. I still plan to stay away from crap food or "food-like products" and eat well for, like 80% of the time and just really focus on getting healthy and losing weight. I also think working out again will give me a lot more energy than I've had lately which will be really great!

Any thoughts and ideas are more than welcome so please share with me!!

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Thursday Weigh-In - May 25th

Thursday Weigh-In - May 25th:
05/11/2017:                    -2 pounds
Total lost:                       35 pounds
Current Weight:             195 pounds

Yes!! Another two pounds down! This is going quiet well so far! I'm down a total of 35 pounds and my next short term goal is to lose another 5 lbs and to hit 190.

Most of this week was spent doing low carb/keto (I think 3 out of 7 days, two days were low carb but not keto and one day was high carb and calorie) and I did much, much better with veggies and berries (and some fruit).

I'm liking the low carb thing as long as I know I have an option for a small treat once a week so that's what I'm shooting for for this coming week.

I also need to seriously start working out and now that the boxer portrait is done, I will have more time to play with. My workout is planned out and all my stuff is ready to go so all I need to do is to actually do it. Today I feel like crap and am having a very high pain day so hopefully tomorrow for exercise.

I also know I'm not going to keep losing weight at such a nice rate every week but I'm going to enjoy it while I can!

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

More Thinking, Planning and Replanning thoughts just keep on going...

Earlier today, when I realized that giving myself permission to have carbs kind of made me want to stick with low carb I decided to sit back and think... what is different from when I first started low carb and was happy with it to now when I keep restarting low carb and am not happy with anything in general (but, no, not depressed again, no worries there I promise).

I also spent some time going back and forth with friends on our Facebook group for health and fitness and here's what I realized.

1) Of course it was more fun when I first started low carb because it was new to me, I was constantly learning new things and it was kind of exciting plus the weight was coming off really fast so there was constant positive reinforcement in that area.

2) My once a week cheat day which I've since taken out because it kept leading to massive binges. Here's the thing though, when I started with my cheat "day" it was more of a cheat snack. One small higher carb item that I could enjoy on my weigh-in day before getting back to work on low carb/keto. It gave me something to look forward to all week as I worked hard to stay within my calories and macros and it was delicious.

Of course we know how this goes... after a several weeks one cheat snack became two, then it became three, then it became a cheat meal and then an entire cheat day full of non-stop food and binging which then turned to two days and so on. So I the last few times I restarted low carb I tried to leave out the cheat day which left me constantly going back between low carb and not low carb.

I think if I were to introduce the cheat treat back in, only on my weigh-in days, and keep it at one small item, I may be much happier doing low carb the rest of the week. Like a friend suggested earlier, kind of have it like Weight Watchers offers the extra weekly points. Have some banked "extra" carbs for one treat or special occasion and not feel horrible, guilty or like I have to change my entire plan just to fit it in! BUT... it has to be held in control and not be allowed to turn into more than one treat which is where the will power I talked about yesterday comes in.

3) Once my body adapted to low carb, I felt amazing and wanted to keep going because of how I was feeling. As I've said earlier in this blog, I haven't given it a chance to get to the amazing feeling part yet because I keep doing different things.

So, the new plan is part of yesterday's plan and part of today's... real, good, healthy food while still keeping the carbs low, one controlled treat a week and giving this a chance for me to actually start to feel the benefits of the low carb. Also, keep trying new low carb/keto foods and recipes to keep from getting bored.

I promise I won't change the plan again for at least three weeks... but hopefully more!

You Know... It's Funny... of two things happen when I decide to up my carbs...

1) I binge and eat crap and junk (not doing that this time)


2) I suddenly feel okay with doing low carb because I have the option to eat more if I want and low carb is okay.

I'm going to keep going with the basics... healthy food and if most days end up low carb that's fine. Some days may be higher carb, some days may dip into the keto-carb levels, some days may not. I need to take it day by day and see what happens.

The biggest goal is to focus on much more healthy food; especially veggies and some fruit while fitting into my calories and keeping an eye on the macros.

There's really no need to obsess about every day because, as my sister tried to make me see a few weeks ago, every day does NOT have to be the same. They can vary and they will vary and I need to deal with that and accept it.

As long as I keep it mostly healthy, with no cheating and binging, keep losing weight and feeling good I'll be happy.

Monday, May 22, 2017

Trying Something Different

Yeah, basically the above is the plan!

I decided I'm not done playing with carbs. Between rereading the book my trainer suggested to me "The Renaissance Diet for Women" and watching (And now wanting to read) "In Defense of Food" and just not being happy with low carb no matter how I try... I'm just not done.

I need to find a different way... but without cheating and binging. No lectures please, I have to sort this thing out on my own. I've been in this pattern for way too long because I just haven't wanted to do what I'm doing so I have to break out of the pattern and just sticking with low carb isn't going to do for me anymore (I've been thinking about this a LOT... I just haven't been constantly posting about it).

I want to eat real food. Good, homemade, healthy, filling, real food. And if it has more carbs than I eat now so be it. And if some days have less so be it as well. I need to find a lifestyle I can live with and I am hating this one and have been for quiet a while. I'm deleted my last blog post about low carb and will write a new one soon talking more about this.

I know I mentioned consistency but I'm sick of feeling like this and I don't want to keep forcing it right now.

Plus, I think I have more willpower than I give myself credit for... I just don't use it as I should but it's time to bring out the big guns and put it into play!

Oh and while I did not do a full workout for several reasons, I did stretch and that's a start!

Motivational Monday

I have been doing horribly with working out so I figured a simple, basic, motivational image with ideas would really help me so these are my new rules!!

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Thursday Weigh-In - May 18th

Thursday Weigh-In - May 18th:
05/11/2017:                    -2 pounds
Total lost:                       33 pounds
Current Weight:             197 pounds

Okay, two pounds down. It was actually more earlier in the week but my couple of "off" days with high carbs and calories messed me up. I'm not complaining about the two pounds mind you, I'm just saying I could have done better.

I'm really happy with the plan right now and I'm finding myself fitting in a lot more healthy foods now that I'm planning better and I feel like I have "permission" to eat them, if that makes any sense.

I'm staying within my calorie and my macro amounts but still getting in veggies and some fruit and the weight loss should keep happening as long as I stick with the plan.

I actually need to drop about five more pounds to even be able to wear any of my short comfortably, even the ones that were comfy last summer, so I really need to kick things in high gear. I'm happy I've added my workouts back in and am really looking forward to Pull Day B today this afternoon.

I have a new drawing chair coming today that's supposed to be much, much better quality than the one I have now (that's been killing my back) and it has lumbar support so I should be able to get back to work on the boxer portrait as soon as that's put together.

My goals are very basic for this coming week: finish the boxer portrait, stick to the healthy low carb plan and work out 5 days out of 7.

That should be it for now!

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

Wednesday, May 17th Workout - Push Day B - Chest, Shoulders, Triceps & Abs Plus Cardio

I'm finally working out again and my back handled it very well! I picked up where I left off last time so there weren't many abs today but there will be tomorrow!

I'll definitely be working out at home for the next foreseeable future as our expenses suddenly went up thanks to sewer issues, water heater issues, car issues, etc, so the gym is on hold for now.

I also, finally, started walking outside for this season. I started out with a walk around Elm Hill school but had to switch to it walking around the outside of our house due to a lot of people suddenly driving up and then I only lasted 16 minutes because I'm not used to my outdoor sneakers anymore and my feet and calves were cramping really badly. If we can get into the habit of walking every day (or close to it) like we did last summer, my feet will get used to it quickly, plus we need to start preparing for the hike around Gillette castle in Connecticut this August!

Push Day B - Chest, Shoulders, Triceps & Abs Plus Cardio: 1 hour, 30 Minutes Total Time

Chest, Shoulders, Triceps & Abs - 63 Minutes

Basic Warm up

Basic Plank - 1 x 66 seconds, 1 x 51 sec, 1 x 37 sec 1 x 38 sec, 1 x 34 sec

Incline Dumbbell Press - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 8 lbs

Incline Dumbbell Fly - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 8 lbs

Resistance Band Tricep Kickbacks- 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x green band (10-12 lbs)

Isolation Rear Delt - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 3 lbs

Dumbbell Front Raises - 3 sets x 15 reps: 3 x 5 lbs

Dumbbell Lateral Raises - 3 sets x 15 reps: 3 x 5 lbs

Anchored Resistance Band Chest Press - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x Black band (15-20 lbs)

Skull Crushers - 3 set x 15 reps:  3 x 5 lbs

Dumbbell Flat Bench Pullover - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 10 lbs

6-inch Lift : 5 set x 15 seconds

Outdoor Walk: 16 Minutes

Fitbit info:
time: 16 minutes, distance: .58 miles, steps: 1,471, calories burned: 140

Full body Stretch - 11 Minutes

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Feeling Renewed Hope for Low Carb/Keto and My Health

I was given the link to this plan today and after checking it out I definitely have renewed hope for being able to stick to low carb/keto and be healthy about it.

As I've mentioned before, I have the worst time fitting in veggies and fruit into my plan but this plan gives me not only carb breakdowns for meals but also lists of all the things I can eat and how to fit them in. I don't know how I missed this site in the last year and a half of doing low carb but there are so many options on it that I thought were just closed to me (mostly fruit). And I get 50 net carbs, not 40 which opens it up a little more for more choices than this plan shows.

I never really paid attention to Atkins but I am loving what this plan offers and for the first time in a long time I actually feel like I can be healthy on this plan and still feel good and continue to lose weight.

I've been going back and forth a lot mostly because I felt stuck and limited in my food. I had no idea I could open that limit up but still keep it low carb/keto and I'm really excited to put this plan into effect!!

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Sunday Thoughts...

... and what got me there was overeating crappy, carby, sugary food. It's hard to admit that I can't control myself but it's also true. I attempted more carbs for two days this week so far. The first day went well because I kept it low carb until dinner and then had mostly veggies. The second day was out of control and I'm back to low carb/keto and pretty much have to admit to myself that I HAVE to stay there. I don't need to experiment anymore, I know what works and I know what I need to do. It's just so hard to admit that I truly can not handle the simple carbs and sugars.

For example... There were 3 blueberry streusel "bites" in the house (my 2nd favorite after cherry). We're not going to talk about where the rest of them went yesterday. Anyway, they're 70 calories and 8 grams of carbs each. I knew and I mean KNEW that if I had said, "yeah, I'm doing moderate carb right now," that I would have gone and eaten every one of those three, but when I said, "no, my limit is low carb," that I wouldn't touch them and I didn't (Charles finished them for me).

I guess I desperately NEED that limit although I feel kind of pathetic knowing I need something like that and still can't control myself around "junk" or high carb foods. There's something in me that's so addicted that as soon as I relax the reigns a little it all goes to hell.

And that's exactly what it is. It is a true addiction and I have to look at it that way in order to break it. I can NOT have simple sugars and carbs, I get out of control no matter how hard I try. I need to accept it and do what works for me and just stop trying to do something different. I have to do this.
Maybe someday I will be able to control it but I need to stop messing around with it because "someday" is definitely not now.

I also decided to change the way I view this last year of, basically, weight-loss stalling. I was thinking about this on Friday and I had an interesting realization... I spent the last year kind of going up and down between the same 5 or 6 pounds and I keep saying that I wasted a whole year but if I change the way I look at it, I didn't waste the year, I kept off the 22-30-some-odd pounds for that year that I've lost so far. Obviously I still have a ton to lose but still. It's something.

Maybe if I start to look at that as a positive instead of a negative I'll get more positivity going!

Also, tomorrow I'll be back at the gym doing weight machine workouts because my back has really been acting up and hurting with all the drawing I've been doing (my hand isn't feeling too great either) and machines will protect my back better than an at-home free weight workout would. And I'm really looking forward to it too!

I think that's all I have for now and I hope you all have a great Mother's day!

Thursday, May 11, 2017

Thursday Weigh-In - May 11th

Thursday Weigh-In - May 11th:
05/11/2017:                    +3.6 pounds
Total lost:                       31 pounds
Current Weight:             199 pounds

So, okay, the scale said 199 and I deserve some of that considering the horrible two "cheat" days that I had but I am also (TMI) peeing every freaking hour which means my body was holding on to water which means I'll be a good two pounds lighter tomorrow but since today is my weigh in day I can't count that until next week and that sucks!

It was also very, very hard not to buy crap when grocery shopping today. I pretty much wanted everything that I saw as long as it was loaded with carbs and sugar. I didn't get any of it but, wow, did I want it. The addiction is real!

I am now two days back on track and plan on staying that way. I had to skip today's workout because my lower back is really bothering me but I hope to be back at it tomorrow.

So, things are back on track and should stay that way despite the cravings. I just have to take it one meal, one day and one pound at a time.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

It's a Brand New Day...

As of today I am rededicating myself to low carb. I found where I went off track that very first time I was doing it (when I stuck to it for many months but was including cheat days) and I know what to do and how to do it. I've known for a long time but now I'm willing to give it everything I have.

I'm tired of starting and stopping and constantly searching around for that better plan. I know the plan I need to follow and I need the rigidness of it to be able to actually stick to it. Give me too much flexibility and freedom and I go wild. I have too much weight to lose and to much more of other things (so much more) to gain to keep going back and forth like this!

I've regained at least 2 pounds just from the crap I've eaten in the last 2 days and I am ready to really, truly do this. All that crap food does is make me want more and make me gain more. The taste isn't worth everything that comes after.

I'm starting my MFP count over again as well because I want to count from this day one. It won't always go perfectly and mistakes will be made but I'm ready and absolutely willing to do this and I'm actually looking forward to it!

So what are we waiting for? Let's begin!

Monday, May 8, 2017

Monday, May 8th Workout - Leg Day A - Quads, Hamstrings, Calves & Abs

Leg day is done and it was hard! I haven't done the monster walk exercise in a long time and it was just as hard as I remembered! Plus I'm seriously feeling the last two workouts in my upper body so, basically I'm sore and happy.

I didn't do any cardio today though, I actually started to but my legs and my left knee weren't able to keep up. Hopefully I can do more tomorrow!

Leg Day A - Quads, Hamstrings, Calves & Abs: 1 hour, 16 Minutes Total Time

Quads, Hamstrings, Calves & Abs - 65 Minutes

Basic Warmup

Basic Plank - 1 x 62 seconds, 1 x 42 sec, 1 x 41 sec 1 x 33 sec, 1 x 23 sec

Plie Squat - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 10 lbs

Monster Walk - 3 sets across (about 22 steps each way) w/red band (25-30 lbs)

Seated Weighted Quad Extensions w/10 lb ankle weights (per ankle, total weight 20 lbs) -  3 sets x 15 reps: 3 x 5 lbs

Prone Dumbbell Hamstring Curl w/10 lb ankle weights (per ankle, total weight 20 lbs - 3 sets x 15 reps: 3 x 5 lbs

Resistance Bands Hip Extensions - 3 sets x 15 reps: 3 x red band (25-30 lbs)

Standing Dumbbell Calf Raise w/5 lb ankle weights -  3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 10 lbs

Single Leg Bridge (Leg on Thigh) - 3 set x 15 reps

Bench Crunch-  3 set x 15 rep

Opposite Toe Reaches - 3 set x 15 rep

Full body Stretch - 11 Minutes

Motivational Monday

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Sunday, May 7th Workout - Pull Day A - Back, Traps, Biceps & Abs Plus Cardio

Another workout done and I loved it again, but I definitely could have gone heavier on both the band lat pulldown and the inclined dumbbell row so I will the next time around. Leg Day A tomorrow!

Pull Day A - Back, Traps, Biceps & Abs Plus Cardio: 1 hour, 38 Minutes Total Time

Back, Traps, Biceps & Abs - 57 Minutes

Basic Warmup

Basic Plank - 1 x 38 seconds, 1 x 33 sec, 1 x 28 sec 1 x 28 sec, 1 x 25 sec

Resistance Band Lat Pulldown on Ball - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x Orange band (35-40 lbs)

Inclined Dumbbell Row - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 8 lbs

Seated Dumbbell Bicep Curl - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 8 lbs

Dumbbell Upright Row - 3 sets x 15 reps: 3 x 8 lbs

Seated Forearm Extension -  3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 3 lbs

Standing Hammer Curl - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 8 lbs

Seated Forearm Curl -  3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 3 lbs

Heel to Toe Walk (for balance) - 6 times across

Superman w/Heel and Toe Squeezes - 3 set x 10 reps

Triangle Crunch - 3 set x 15 reps

Standing Oblique Crunch : 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 5 lbs

Cardio - 30 Minutes:

“Leslie Sansone Just Walk - Walk Off Fat Fast 30 Minutes Big Burn":
Fitbit info: time: 30 minutes, distance: 1.5, steps: 3,596, calories burned: 224

Full body Stretch - 11 Minutes

Quality over Quantity

Okay, I definitely need more carbs on workout days (and possibly other days). I've been keeping it at under 40 net but it's 40 net of more fake than real food and that needs to change.

Last night after my workout, I went to bed starving, woke up starving and with a horrible headache. Plus I'm finding myself doing the "thing" again where I'm avoiding veggies and fruit in order to keep my carb count lower which is so stupid. 

I think I may have to seriously take this thing one day (one meal?) at a time and stop focusing so much on how many carbs and instead focus on how healthy they are even of there's more of them! 

It's a quality over quantity kind of thing. One of these days I'll find the best thing for me but I don't just want to lose weight, I want to get healthy at the same time. That might mean slower weight loss but if it leads to better health and a stronger body then maybe it's worth it.

Saturday, May 6, 2017

Saturday, May 6th Workout - Push Day A - Chest, Shoulders, Triceps & Abs Plus Cardio

I haven't really been in a gym mood lately and today I suddenly really wanted to work out at home so I pulled up my last planned at-home workout and decided to give it a try.

I LOVED IT and worked my butt off so I think I'll do this for a while. I'm not quitting the gym but I go in stages and I'm in a "work out at home" stage right now. Plus the weather's getting beautiful so we can go back to walking outside!

I'll see how this goes and then decide about my membership before June when I get charged again and probably go month to month. I figure as long as I'm working out and doing something then I'm good!

Push Day A - Chest, Shoulders, Triceps & Abs Plus Cardio: 1 hour, 46 Minutes Total Time

Chest, Shoulders, Triceps & Abs - 65 Minutes

Basic Warmup

Basic Plank - 1 x 63 seconds, 1 x 47 sec, 1 x 41 sec 1 x 37 sec, 1 x 31 sec

Sink Push-Ups - 3 set x 15 reps

Resistance Band Lateral Raise - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x Blue band (4-6 lbs)

Dumbbell Flat Bench Press - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 8 lbs

Dumbbell Flat Bench Fly - 3 sets x 15 reps: 1 x 8 lbs, 2 x 5 lbs

Seated Dumbbell Press -  3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 5 lbs

Overhead Seated Tricep Extensions - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 8 lbs

Seated Bent Over Raises - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x 3 lbs

Resistance Band Tricep Pulldowns - 3 set x 15 reps: 3 x Green band (10-12 lbs)

Swiss Ball Crunch - 3 set x 15 reps

Oblique Bench Crunch : 3 set x 15 reps

Cardio - 30 Minutes:

“Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds - 2 Mile Brisk Walk” - 30 Minutes Easy Burn:
Fitbit info: time: 30 minutes, distance: 1.59, steps: 3,719, calories burned: 255

Full body Stretch - 11 Minutes

Friday, May 5, 2017

More Low Carb/Keto Thoughts...

Yesterday I went up to 100 grams of carbs (good ones!) and today the scale is up by 2 pounds... I know it's not "real" weight but probably water but WTF! Seriously!

And I didn't feel very good carb-wise. There's this feeling I get when I have too many carbs and sugars, I can't really describe it but it's not fun and that was last night. Almost like a "carb hangover" kind of feeling which sucked considering how good I've been feeling.

I'm starting to think that the "sweet spot" I've been looking for is 50 grams and under instead of 100 and under because that's when I feel my best. I think I'm going to keep this week 50 grams of carbs and under and really pay attention to how I'm feeling, especially after working out. Those days I may go higher but it all depends on how I feel, how my body reacts and basically if I really want them, or, like, need them or if it's just a craving. That makes a big difference!

So that's the general plan and at some point in time I'll decide if this is a low carb lifestyle or a keto one or a combo but for now I'm taking it day by day and really listening to my body!

Thursday, May 4, 2017

Thursday Weigh-In - May 4th

Thursday Weigh-In - May 4th:
05/04/2017:                    -1.8 pounds
Total lost:                       34.6 pounds
Current Weight:             195.4 pounds

Finally! I'm finally seeing some results of my hard work and it probably helps that I'm sticking with low carb and not cheating.

There was even gelato in the freezer... my all-time favorite gelato (this was on Monday when I did a quick experiment to see how sugar carbs will affect me after 4 days of low carb and it did not go well... I felt awful!). Anyway, my favorite gelato... I had a little, put it back in the freezer and didn't touch it again despite it being in there for three days! Charles ended up finishing it and I didn't even want it! That is HUGE progress for me!

I think I'm finally done detoxing and I'm starting to feel pretty good. I'm wiped out exhausted today because I slept horribly last night but that happens sometimes. I still want to get to the gym this week and I'm thinking tomorrow is my best bet.

Also, I need to stop saying I'm doing low carb/keto because if I allow myself up to 100 grams of carbs (not the "bad" ones) that's not keto. It's just low carb.

I've been at under 50 and under for most of last week but this week I'm adding in some healthy foods (black beans into my taco salad specifically for iron and that will up my carbs past 50 on the days I eat it) so, I'm doing low carb, not keto but those carbs are the good ones.

Another goal that I have is to lose 10 pounds by the time we visit Sarah the weekend of July 8th so that's one pound a week (I decided this last week which gave me 10 weeks to lose 10 pounds) which puts me ahead by 0.8 lbs this week!

I'm sure if I do what I'm supposed to, stick to the plan and work out I can lose more but I wanted to pick a doable goal and it would be my lowest weight since 2007 so if I can do it I'll be thrilled and if I can do more I'll be even more thrilled lol.

And finally I'm also starting my new dog portrait commission tomorrow and I'm very excited about that!

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Thoughts and Updates

So, no matter how I love my carbs, all signs have continually pointed me toward sticking with low carb/keto with the final one just days ago.

I've been wondering for a while if I am insulin sensitive (I'm definitely a carboholic) so I called my doctor's office and checked with my Mom (she has my lab blood test paperwork copy). I specifically wanted to know where I stand on on my fasting blood sugar.

My number was 109. Under a hundred is normal. Over a hundred and you're starting to reach into the insulin resistance/prediabetes territory. The nurse I spoke too said that 109 wasn't perfect but they don't start to really worry until you hit 120 but I should keep an eye on it. But it's enough for me that 100 is normal and I'm over that.

And what will help me lower than number? Weight loss and less carbs and sugars. Of course. So I'm most definitely sticking with low carb/keto and actually getting more serious about it. No major cheat days (if any), trying new recipes, checking out low carb alternatives to things I like to eat and so on and I'm happy with this choice.

I'm not obsessing and I'm not driving myself crazy about this. It just is what it is and this what's best for me.

I'm also still working really hard on getting in daily water and I haven't felt dizzy, lightheaded or like passing out since I've been keeping myself well hydrated. And I'm taking the freaking iron pills but I still HATE them. They leave me with really bad indigestion and feeling extremely nauseated. I'm going to try taking them at night and see if that helps because feeling like this sucks.

Outside of that I'm hoping to be back at the gym more often starting tomorrow and I feel strong enough to pick up my last push/pull/leg (x2) workout instead of just machines. I did machines for 2 days last week and I'm a lot stronger and more capable than I expected to be after taking such a long break so I can do this!

We also started a new May step challenge in my Facebook group, well, two actually... one for beginners and one for advanced,. Currently I'm at the beginner level but I know on gym days I'll probably be hitting the more advanced numbers and I'm looking forward to that!

And tomorrow is my weigh-in day. Considering how the scale has been all week I'm not expecting much but we'll see.

That's it until then!