Monday, November 20, 2017

Just Some Thoughts and Updates

As you guys may have noticed, I have been pretty quiet this week. Mostly this is because I've been really sick since about Thursday with the weekend being the worst and today not being great.

I ended up missing Gabriel's play, church and a bunch of appointment and I'm on day 3 of almost no steps because I feel like total crap. I think it is finally starting to get better but I did manage to give it to Charles which makes things even more fun :/

On top of that, as of Thursday night, I had to stop using the antibiotic cream for my face from the dermatologist because it was making my skin about 100 times worse from the moment it actually touched my skin. I gave it 4 days and it got worse with every use so the derm told me to stop using it and they called in something different but my insurance only approved it just now and it has to be special ordered by pharmacy so I won't have it until tomorrow.

In the meantime, nothing with my face has changed for the better and it's actually dryer than ever and feels itchy and not good. At least the rash hasn't come back!

I also attempted to try and use my pull up bar with the assisted band I got for it and I guess I'm a big scaredy cat because I couldn't come up with the courage to let go and step off the chair. I just feel like it won't hold me even though I know it's limit is 220 lbs and Charles hung on it for a second and it held him. I just couldn't take that step off. I guess I need to keep working on it or something.

I do want to start my workouts up this week, at home because screw germs! I'm not getting sick again!! And we don't really do Thanksgiving so it's more like us having a bunch of days off to just hang out together and put the tree up the day after, so I'm hopping to feel better enough to get my butt back in exercise mindset and back to my steps.

Food and tracking and diet and all that is going great by the way, the issue now is being sick and lack of exercise.

I think that's about everything.

Motivational Monday

Thursday, November 16, 2017

Thursday Weigh-In - November 16th - Twenty-Three Weeks Low Carb/Keto

Thursday Weigh-In - November 16th:
11/16/2017:                  -0.4 pounds
Total lost:                      66.2  pounds
Current Weight:            163.8 pounds

Another week, another loss! It may be a pretty small one but I'm thrilled with it because up until this morning the scale hadn't moved down all week!

I now have 33.8 pounds to go until goal weight and I'm on day 161 of no cheating, and, I have to be honest here, I'm getting more and more tired of "dieting." Yes, I know I'm changing my lifestyle and not actually dieting but I'm tired of the whole thing right now.

It's not that I'm craving carby foods and it's not that I'm not making progress or anything like that I'm just tired. I want a day or two where I don't have to count and weigh everything and worry about what I'm eating but I know I'm not ready for that, and I'm not done, so I'm just going to keep going.

But I am SO looking forward to my feast day on Christmas! And I don't need to worry about Thanksgiving because we don't do Thanksgiving anyway lol.

I was also all set to do a big gym workout today until I woke up miserably sick. So, for today, I want to do my steps (at least 12,000) and I start to feel any better instead of just feeling worse as the day goes on then I'll do more. I am doing awesome with my steps so I'm thrilled about that.

I also decided to just put the gym off until Spring because my body can't seem to handle germs right now. This is the second time I've been sick in less than two weeks and with winter coming, I'm going to stick with working out at home and worry about the gym come Spring. There's tons I can do here anyway!

I think that covers it for now!

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Thoughts And Updates on Dermatologist, Skin Issues, Workouts - Gym/Home and More!

It's been a long few days so I'm breaking this down into bullet points...

  • I finally saw the dermatologist. He thinks what's going on with my face, neck and chest is Rosacea but after listening to me explain what happened and  looking at all the photos I had, he said he can't discount the possibility of lupus (which, you know, I wasn't surprised to hear with all the other autoimmune crap I have going on).                                                                             
  • For the next month I'm on a serious sun block in the mornings and an antibiotic topical cream at night. I'm going to continue to take pics depending on what my skin does and if that same kind of rash comes back anytime during this month I need to call his office ASAP and they'll get me right in. He said if he had seen me during that rash he probably would have biopsied it :/                                                                                                                                                            
  • I go back in a month and we'll go from there. I'm hoping this clears up the problem but we'll see. I'm not going to obsess about it right now.                                                                                  
  • I still haven't started working out again (outside of hitting my 10,000 steps a day or more) and since yesterday I've been wanting to hit the gym again. I was waiting for that feeling to away like it normally does but as of right now I still want to go back so I really sat back and thought about it and here's my new thoughts...                                                                                                                
  • I'm going to finalize my home and gym workout plans and as soon as I feel up to them again, I'll do either gym or home or some of both. My gym membership goes until January 1st which gives me over a month to go if I really want to and see how I like going in the cold and dark and then decide if I want to keep the gym or not. It seems more sensible for me to leave the option open while I can instead of deciding today that I'm done.                                                                                                       
  • I think it's all going to depend on how I feel on a particular day, what my schedule is like and what the weather is doing! In the meantime, I don't actually have to make a final decision until January 1st so I can at least stop obsessing for now!                                                                        
  • But I am seriously missing working out and I really have to fit some kind of workout back into my plan ASAP!!!

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Sunday Thoughts...

I had a great time at my best friend's this weekend!

My food stayed completely on track and I hit over 13,000 steps on Friday (thanks to the mall) and will hit over 10,000 today! I did make Saturday a rest day because of how badly my back hurt so I'll just skip the coming up rest day on Tuesday and do regular walking then.

I also discovered (because I asked my friend to measure my height so I could know exactly what it was) that I'm 1/2 inch shorter than I thought all these years.

I'm 5'2.5 and not 5'3 which shouldn't matter that much I guess, it just means that I need to lose an extra 2 lbs to get into the overweight BMI and could actually shoot for a lower weight loss goal if I wanted to but, for now, I'm leaving my goals as they are.

I haven't weighed myself since Friday which is really weird to me so it'll be interesting to see what the scale shows tomorrow. Hopefully things are still on the downward trend.

I plan to start my full workouts tomorrow with Push Day A, cardio and stretch as long as my back holds out. Other than that everything else: food, plans, etc are pretty much staying the same.

I will also be seeing the dermatologist on Tuesday morning (finally!!) so hopefully we can figure out what's going on with my skin.

I think that's all I have for now!

Thursday, November 9, 2017

Thursday Weigh-In - November 9th - Twenty-Two Weeks Low Carb/Keto

Thursday Weigh-In - November 9th:
11/09/2017:                  -2.0 pounds
Total lost:                      65.8  pounds
Current Weight:            164.2 pounds

Yes!! I had an awesome loss this week and I worked hard for it! Not only did I stick to my food plan (despite how much I want that damned donut yesterday) but I did 8,000 - 12,000 steps a day for the last 7 out of 8 days (one day was a rest day). Those steps really added up fast and my body feels so much more ready to work out once this weekend is over!

So, I've lost weight every week for the last 22 weeks and I'm down 34.4 lbs in the same 22 weeks of no cheating! And I only have 34.2 pounds to go until my original goal weight!!

This week my plan doesn't really change much... stick to the food plan, stick to the step goals and start up my serious workouts again on Monday (as long as I feel okay because usually after a weekend away my body makes me pay for the fun with some serious pain).

Other than that, nothing much is changing. I'm just chipping away at my goal bit by bit and eventually I'll get there!

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Home Gym For the Win!


Home gym it is!

After tons of thinking, planning, making lists, more thinking, some obsessing, lots of talking and many opinions, I'm going with my home gym for now.

A lot of this has to do with the coming winter, financial costs, germs, bad weather and more financial  issues.

I have a fantastic "gym" of my own that I've been slowly building and I'm happy here. I love the actual gym but right now we're cutting everything that counts as extra and making as many cutbacks as possible.

I am going to consider the actual gym again when Spring comes with better weather and. hopefully, a better financial situation.

In the meantime, I'll be starting up my official workouts again as of Monday (I'll be out of town all weekend and will at least manage my steps and some stretching) so stay tuned for those!

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

To Gym or Not to Gym... That is the Question...


So, for the last several days I've been contemplating if I should continue working out at home or return to the gym (currently I'm just working on 10,000 steps a day until the pain days improve so I have time to think).

There are definitely pros and cons to both and it's hard for me to make this decision but a decision needs to be made.

Sure, it would be great to do both BUT if I pay for a gym membership I actually need to attend and not waste my money and if I do that then I need to stop making excuses (like... it's cold out, it's raining~soon to be snowing, I don't have time, I'm tired, it's getting late, it'll be dark by the time I'm done...) and just go and I need to stop purchasing equipment for my home because I really can't afford to do both.

If  I choose to stay at home instead then I can keep buying affordable stuff for the home but I need to stop spending money on a gym membership I don't use because, once again, I can't afford to do both.

Sure, I can go to the gym for the majority of the time and do things like yoga, pilates, stretching and outdoor walks (in good weather) at home but just stop buying stuff to challenge myself more and make myself work harder so let's do some pros and cons because it always helps me to "think out loud."

Also, at this time one of my pros for staying at home is the fact that no one will shoot me here and even I know that's not a mentally healthy thought so I suppose I should deal with that sometime soon!

Okay, so, let's do this...

Working Out at Home Pros:
  • I don't have to leave my house
  • I don't have to wait on any machines or equipment and it doesn't matter what I look like
  • I can watch movies while working out
  • I'm right at home in case of emergencies or issues
  • I can work out at any time or day
  • immediate bathroom access (I have IBS... trust me, this one is important)
  • doesn't officially cost me anything
  • bad weather won't prevent a workout
  • I don't have to pack a bag or forget my water bottle or headphones or whatever
  • I don't have to deal with other people
  • someone is usually here to take my pics for my Instagram during workouts
  • no germs!
  • I can get all my questions answered online by my trainer and meet with her is the need exists
  • I can go as slow or as fast as I want and really focus on every rep without worrying that I have to rush home again
  • I can grunt, swear and yell as much as I want and not feel stupid lol
  • I seem more likely to stick to a home routine more than a gym routine
  • I'm a lot less likely to wake up on a super rainy day and say "ugh, I'm not going out in this today" vs going "it's raining but it's not like I have to leave the house so let's work out."
  • I can split my workouts into morning and late afternoon and not have to worry about getting to the gym twice
  • I do get a huge endorphin rush even at home
  • if I pay money for equipment I can suit it to what I want/need and I get to keep it with no membership needed... it's mine for life
  • I'm a lot more likely to do simple exercises or a yoga DVD on high pain days rather than go to the gym... high pain days are for home
  • um... I don't have to leave my house (I know, I know, I said that one already)

Working Out at Home Cons:
  • I don't get quiet the same kind of endorphin rush as the gym
  • I don't get as sore or feel my workout has been as tough as at the gym
  • the money I'd spend on a gym membership is actually being spent on random home equipment most months :/
  • a lot less options for equipment and cardio choices
  • if my form is wrong there's no one to correct it
  • if I don't know how to do an exercise I can't just ask someone that minute and have someone show me how to do it
  • I am more isolated which isn't the best thing for my metal health at times
  • distractions... so many, many distractions
  • my cardio is limited to DVDs (unless I can get outside or eventually afford a treadmill)
  • The Christmas tree is going to seriously get in the way of my workout space from end of November to New Year's Day although I'm working on a plan for that

Working Out at the Gym Pros:
  • Very short drive to get there - less than 10 minutes from home
  • 2 available bathrooms (IBS thing again)
  • Internet and phone access in case of emergencies
  • tons of options for equipment and cardio
  • weight training machines that support my back and push me harder
  • huge endorphin rush
  • I sweat more and am twice as sore as any at-home workouts
  • someone to correct my form
  • someone to answer my questions or show me how to do a certain exercise
  • I can listen to music for the whole workout and/or watch a movie during cardio
  • endless exercise options using dumbbells, kettle balls, cables, machines, free weights, barbells, squat rack, cardio stuff and many, many more... also higher quality equipment than what I have at home
  • people to talk to and get inspired by
  • people to share workout progress and accomplishments with
  • I can go at anytime since it's 24 hours
  • my trainer is there twice a week and can answer all my questions and show me how to do whatever I want to learn to do
  • making new friends
  • full length mirrors so I can take my own pics as I go and watch my form and muscles work as I work out
  • learning new exercises and routines just by watching people or asking and being able to see if first hand and not on YouTube
  • The equipment is mostly set up and ready for me... for example: I don't have to figure out how many times to wrap a resistance band around an anchor to make it heavy enough or short enough for an exercise... I just choose the weight and go

Working Out at the Gym Cons:
  • I actually have to make myself go there
  • have to make sure I can fit so much time into my schedule so I don't have to break up a workout or end it early
  • monthly payments
  • having to leave my warm house in rain, snow and cold
  • having it closed or not being able to get there in snow or ice storms
  • sharing equipment or waiting to use it
  • germs!!!!!
  • no one to take my pics for Instagram while I work out
  • making sure I have everything I need - sneakers, water bottle, headphones, phone, yoga mat, printed workout, etc
  • feeling intimidated by others - maybe, it depends on the day
So, that's what I have so far (if I think of more I'll add it throughout the day). 

Thoughts, opinions, ideas?

Help me out here people!

Sunday, November 5, 2017

150 days Low Carb/Keto Cheat Free!!!


So... today is not just 150 days low carb/keto with no cheating but also my my most current 30-day no cheat streak (so I have a new tank top - pic at the bottom of the page).

These last 25 days have been pretty much the same as a the previous 25. I'm sticking with everything I've been doing before, I'm not having any major cravings and I'm still losing weight.

Some weeks the weight loss is better than others but it's still going down and it was bound to slow down so I'm okay with that.

I was doing great with working out until the pain days kicked back in and my face/neck/chest is just a mess with my skin (still the redness and heat but no spots for now). I'm starting to think that all of this is some kind of autoimmune thing and nothing that I'm doing wrong which kind of sucks in a way because if it was something I was doing, I'd be able to fix it.

This month I'm doing the 30-days step challenge again so that's keeping me going and walking and I'm definitely eating more calories than before because I'm hungry from burning off calories during workouts and walking but it all seems to be evening out come weigh-in day.

So... in 150 days I have not gone over 46 net grams of carbs, I've lost 32.4 pounds (based on my last weigh-in) and countless inches and sizes and I'm looking and feeling better every day.

I still haven't binged and have no plans to binge. I'm still planning my feast day for Christmas but that's not for 50 more days so it's nothing I need to worry about now. I've also hit five 30-day no cheating goals now which is really cool!

I have had absolutely NO desire to have any Halloween candy despite the fact that there's been a giant bowl of it in the house for three weeks now and that feels amazing! I don't miss junk food and crap food at all. Occasionally I think about how yummy it would be to have a small piece of good bread or something but it's not a cravings or anything, just a passing thought and it just feels so great to be in control of what and how much I'm eating!

I have no plans to stop any of this and will just keep sticking with what I'm doing until I hit my goal weight and then I can attempt to figure out maintenance, but, once again, that's nothing I need to worry about right now.

I think that covers it for now!

New 30-day tank-top and it's a size Medium!!!

Thursday, November 2, 2017

Thursday Weigh-In - November 2nd - Twenty-One Weeks Low Carb/Keto

Thursday Weigh-In - November 2nd:
11/02/2017:                  -0.2 pounds
Total lost:                      63.8  pounds
Current Weight:            166.2 pounds

This week I had a tiny loss but I'm okay with this. I didn't really work out much because I've been in pain and felt like crap all week and I know I didn't do anything wrong with my food so it just is what it is.

I've been mentally preparing myself for a while now for the weigh loss to slow down because it was bound to start slowing by now so I'm just going to stay on track and on plan like I have been and, hopefully, kick the exercise back in high gear this week.

I'm also going to keep working on eating more real food with decent protein rather than just grabbing a protein bar or shake because it's easier and I don't want to deal with "real" food. Plus I know that as soon as the pain days and headaches settle down again, things will get back on a better track.

I think that's all I have right now!

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

November Plans...

Happy November everyone!

My Facebook group and I have decided to try the 30-Day Step Challenge that we occasionally do starting today.


Normally, I'll be doing the Intermediate level but since I'm still dealing with a nasty headache that doesn't seem to want to leave as well as more joint pain, today will probably just be beginner level steps.

And, thanks to feeling like utter crap for the last few days, my workouts have obviously been on hold. I have been stretching but that's about all for now but I am hoping to get back into them tomorrow, or at least start one and see how I feel as I do it. I really want to get back into the workout rhythm I've been developing and I'm absolutely loving my current workout plan and set up. I just need this pain tho go away.

As for food, I'm going to continue on with the exact plan I've been following since June. It's going really well (except this week the scale has barely moved at all but, that's okay, that was bound to happen sooner or later and missing days and days of exercise isn't helping) and it just works for me.

I'm almost at my next 30-day no cheating day and I've already ordered my tank top reward so I'll have a photo of that when it's time to put it on!

This "no-cheating" thing seems to be getting easier and easier as I go! I wasn't even tempted once with all of the Halloween candy and last year I would have probably wanted the entire, giant bowl so that's a pretty cool feeling! I'm still having my one "feast" day on Christmas Day but that's not until next month so I'm not really worrying about that right now.

We'll also need to figure out where to put the tree so it doesn't get in the way of my workout space but, once again, that's not something we have to deal with right now so it's not that important.

So... the plan is continue low carb/keto with no cheating, do the step challenge and get back into the workout groove!!

Let's do this!!