Monday, January 29, 2018

One More Restart - Day One Cheat-Free Keto Weigh-In

Starting Weight: 230 lbs (6/26/2015)

Weight on last logging day (1/19/2018): 162.4 lbs

Weight Lost Between 6/26/2015 - 1/19/2018: 67.6 lbs

Weight Gained between 1/19/2018 and Day One (1/29/2018): 9.6 lbs

Total Weight Lost as of Day One: 58 lbs

Day One Weight: 172 lbs

I am restarting back in the 170's and that is depressing enough that I know I can make this work this time around.

I have to lose a good 12 pounds to even get back to my pre-Christmas weight but it is what it is. These are the very real consequences to constant cheating/binging and now's the time to get it together and get back on track.

That's all I really have for this post because I posted yesterday about my plan of attack.

My next official weigh-in is Thursday and I'm hoping to be down at least a pound by then and my newest short-term goal is 170 lbs.

Motivational Monday

Repeat this as many times as it takes to get it through my head!

Sunday, January 28, 2018

Setting Up the Plan - One Step At a Time... Very Long!

I'm still struggling with food, especially sugar and carbs, but I've been working really hard on the plans for how to succeed.

I've been doing a lot of research and reading between the different keto support groups I belong too and I realized that I've been taking in more fat and less protein than I actually need, especially as I get ready to start working out with weight again. The way I'm going, or at least the way my plan and my macros were set up, I will end up losing more muscle than fat and that's not what I'm going for.

So yesterday I worked with a really good keto calculator and I recalculated my calories and macros. The funny thing is, my fat and protein macros are now very, very close to what they had been between June and December when I lost the greatest amount of weight so obviously I was doing something right lol.

The only macros that really changed are my carb ones since I dropped them down from 49 total allowed carbs to 40 total allowed carbs (under 25 net most days).

So now my general macros look like this...

Calories: 1218 (keep in mind I'm only 5'2 1/2" and on psych meds that mess with my metabolism but calories are higher on days that I work out)
Carbs: 40 grams TOTAL (under 25 net)
Protein: 80 grams (how much I should try to hit a day)
Fat: 82 grams (I should NOT go over this amount and this is the limit, not what I have to shoot for)
Fiber: 25 grams (I never get up to 25, usually I'm at 12-16)
Sugar: 20 grams (I never hit 20, I'm usually between 7 and 13)

This is the plan but I can't do everything at once so here's my breakdown...

Weeks 1-2: focus on calories and staying under my carb goals until I'm past the cheating stage and feel secure in my plan. Eat one veggie/berry serving a day.

Weeks 2-4: add focusing on hitting my protein goal with healthy sources of protein (preferably "real" food and not relying shakes and bars). Add another veggie/berry serving to the day.

Weeks 3-5 add trying one new keto recipe a week while sticking with the previous steps and add another veggie/berry serving to the day.

After Week 5 - keep trying new recipes while staying on top of the other steps and keep working on getting in healthy low carb veggies.

Now, here's the rest of the plan that doesn't include the previous macros steps...

1) Make a final decision and stop screwing it up. I either do strict keto or I don't. There is no in between for me and I know that strict keto is what I need or else I WILL gain back everything I have lost so far. So the choice is do or die. That's all there is to it.

2) Pick my Day 1 and stick with it! Also do a new Day 1 weigh-in and blog/Instagram post.

3) Track my food daily on My Fitness Pal.

4) Pre-plan my meals and log them at least a day ahead of time so I know exactly what I will be eating the following day and where my macros will fall.

5) Track, weigh, measure all foods. Nothing goes into my mouth if I don't know its breakdown.

6) Blog or Instagram (I haven't decided which one yet) my nutrient breakdown from MFP so that others can see how I did. This will allow me to look back and see how I'm progressing and it will keep the cheating at bay because I won't want to share my nutrient breakdown if I cheat and knowing I have to share that info at the end of the day will help keep me on track.

7) Weigh-in officially once a week (Thursdays) and track that number but check weight every morning just to keep an eye on how it varies and what seems to cause the variance.

8) Start by blogging my first 5-10 days of no cheating daily, then blog every 5 days of no cheating and so on until I feel like I'm in a good place with it and that I have it under control again. After that I can do a blog post on "no cheating" every 25 days or so.

9) Get a reward for every 25 days of no cheating (25 day increments are easier for me to track especially as you get up into the higher numbers).

10) Start the goal of 10,000 steps a day as of February 1st and aim for that goal daily.

11) Start a planned weight training at home workout as of February (no specific date chosen).

12) Take measurements every 6 weeks and log them.

13) Take progress photos every 12-15 lbs or so (less as I get closer to my goal weight)

14) Focus on each day, each pound, each meal and each workout at a time and takes things day by day and hour by hour if need be.

15) Reread my blog posts from between June to December when I was successful when I feel down to keep myself going. Especially reread The Secret to My Success 1 and The Secret to My Success 2.
Also reread them and posts on the keto boards I follow about how cheating will affect me and harm me in the long run anytime I feel tempted or on edge!

16) NO CHEATING. None. I can NOT handle it and it's NOT worth it!!!

17) Do one fitness challenge a month. It can be anything as long as it's something! I'm really interested in yoga challenges right now!

18) Remember, I'm human and sometimes I will make bad choices, sometimes I will make mistakes, sometimes I will backtrack but as long as I don't quit and find my way back to where I need to be, I'll be okay!

This is all I have for now but I may go back in and edit to add more as I think of it!!

Saturday, January 27, 2018

This is the Plan That Never Ends....

It's 12 pm and I'm already at over 100 grams of carbs (not cheat foods like bread or junk or desserts, just various food that doesn't really fit my plan but I ate them anyway because I seem to have lost all my self-control).

Will I restart Day 1 tomorrow? Yes, and I will restart as many days as I have too to make it stick.

How will I make it stick? I don't know... find some self control?

One idea that I have is to post my nutrition breakdown at the end of every day either on my blog or Instagram or both and talk about how each day went until I'm able to stick to the plan.

If I know that I HAVE to post the nutrition breakdown then I will NOT cheat because I don't want to track all that and then share how it went.

Is this whole back and forth thing getting a little old? Yes it is.

Am I going to just give up? No I'm not.

Am I going to be mad and upset at myself? Probably but every day is a new day to learn and succeed and once of these days it WILL kick in and I will start succeeding.

I know I can do this again and, hey, at least today wasn't a full blow-out cheat day, right?

Thursday, January 25, 2018

Starting Fresh - Day One Keto, Weigh-In and Thoughts

I realize I posted almost this same thing yesterday but I have decided to change a couple of things since then so I'm reposting.

Starting Weight: 230 lbs (6/26/2015)

Weight on last logging day (1/19/2018): 162.4 lbs

Weight Lost Between 6/26/2015 - 1/19/2018: 67.6 lbs

Weight Gained between 1/19/2018 and Day One (1/25/2018): 6.6 lbs

Total Weight Lost as of Day One: 61 lbs

Day One Weight: 169 lbs

I'm ready to be back on the wagon and give it my all again so here's what I'm doing and the changes I'm making!

1) I did not not like having a Wednesday weigh-in instead of Thursday. I work Wednesdays and since I'm adding text to my scale photos for Instagram and editing for color, as well as blogging about my weigh-in, all that is much easier and faster to do at home rather than work (and takes less time as well).

2) The other reason I'm back to Thursday's is a big one. I've noticed that the majority of my weigh gain after cheat days happens the day AFTER I have a cheat-free day but I didn't take that into account when tracking yesterday's weight so the scale today was almost 2 pounds higher than what it was yesterday so I am choosing to count today's weight (although I KNOW a big part of it is water weight, I'm counting it anyway).

3) I also realized after looking over my last set of workouts, that it wasn't the Lauren Gleisberg strength training workouts that hurt my back, it was my cardio DVD. As long as I wasn't doing the cardio my back was fine so I might restart her week one workout and just skip the cardio portions, or do my own workout and really focus on hitting 10,000 steps a day for now, or until my back is stronger. I'm not sure which one I'm going with but I will be doing something soon!

4) I'm starting my daily count on My Fitness Pal over again as today as well as restarting the no cheating rule because this is the time to do it. There's not going to be in any cheating for any upcoming holidays and I have almost a year to consider what to do next Christmas so I'm not worried about that right now.

5) I'm also going back the 30-day no cheating reward but this time I'll decide what what I want as a reward as I get closer to the date instead of choosing one general idea for each time I hit 30 days.
I need to get to a place where I can fight of temptation and not cheating is the only way I can do that. I was able to do it before, from June to December, and I did great but since that first Christmas Eve feast day I haven't been able to stick to the plan and it sucks.

I am determined to make this work because if I don't, not only am I letting down my family and the people who follow me and count on me to inspire them but also myself and that feeling sucks.

I will do it this time! I have to!!

Monday, January 22, 2018

I Will Return...

I'm taking a few days off from any kind of eating plan, blogging and Instagraming, to regroup my head and get in the right place to stick to keto. I'm going to eat some carby things but not go totally crazy with it. 

I just need to find my new mental path so please don't try to talk me out of this or make me feel bad...
I want to officially restart on my next weigh-in day which is Thursday but until then, I need to step back for a bit.

I just feel like I need to step back from tracking and obsessing and just rethink everything I'm doing, why I'm doing it and how I'm doing it.

I'll be back to tracking and posting in a few days, and, yeah, I'll gain some weight but I'm also staying off the scale for the next few days and I'm just... stepping back from the whole thing.

I hope you guys understand if I'm letting you guys down, I'm sorry.

Saturday, January 20, 2018

Making Some Changes to Food and Exercise Plan

Yes. This. This is exactly what I think happened.

I took a plan that was working for me for six months and changed it assuming that would be better. Instead it made things worse so I am editing the plan and returning to what worked.

First... food. I'm going back to a higher carb level but instead of going up to 48 total carbs I'm going to set it at 40 total carbs (so 20's and maybe low 30's sometimes for net). I'm also lowering calories (except when I work out).

I'm also fully cutting out the Power Crunch bars after seeing the ingredients yesterday. I have issues with two of the sugars that are in them and this could explain why I suddenly started craving carbs after having a bar after not having them for a while and why my weight loss may have stalled before Christmas.

I'm going to work very hard on having the majority of the added carbs come from veggies and berries and really focus on a healthier menu.

As for exercise, I'm going back to my Push/Pull/Legs/Abs A-G plan instead of Lauren Gleisberg plan. I love her plan but my back is not handling it well at all so I'm going back to what I know my back can take. Eventually I'd like to try Lauren's plan again but for now it's being set aside.

I had a higher carb day today to try and deal with not feeling well (NOT a binge but not keto either) but as of tomorrow I know I need to return to no "cheating" and no "off plan days" and NOT plan on having any for incoming holidays (like out Easter). It's just not worth it to me.

I'm sure things will take a while to get back to where they should be but I think going back to what has worked so well for me before is the best thing that I can do right now.

Friday, January 19, 2018

Why Doesn't It Feel the Same....

Okay, low carb/keto people please help me out here!

So, as you guys know, I went from June 8th - December 24th doing low carb/keto with no cheating and I felt amazing!!

I was averaging 28-45 net carbs a day depending on the day (usually in the 30's), I was losing weight every week except for the last 2 weeks before Christmas eve (lost a total of 39 pounds in that time), I had NO major carb cravings at all and I felt great with all the good stuff you always hear about low carb/keto... clear skin, tons of energy, weight loss, less headaches, less pain and fibro flares, etc.

I'm now at the end of day 9 of strict keto (under 20 net grams of carbs a day and way, way more fat) and I've had two days when I felt great, day 5 and 6. All the other days I've been tired and massively craving carbs, the cravings only went away on days 5 and 6 and now they're back hugely.

I also only felt the high energy and great keto feelings for those two days.

Why is it so different this time? Is it because I dropped my carbs so much lower?

I did lose weight this past week so that was great and I'm still taking my vitamins and electrolytes and I even started working out (just not the last two days because I really don't feel good) but I just don't feel "right."

Where did all the good low carb/keto feelings go? I don't feel happy with how things are going, I don't feel good, I don't have energy and I just don't feel like me.

Oh, and I noticed that my face, neck and chest issues (very red and hot skin that the dermatologist is trying to figure out) have gotten a lot worse in the 9 days of under 20 net grams of carbs as well!

Could I have dropped the carbs too low for MY body? Was I better off with eating slightly higher carbs and feeling better?

What is going on???

Edited to add...

I just realized something (I'm thinking a LOT about this), I had a PowerCrunch Protein bar as a "treat" yesterday and after that is when I started to feel off, and especially craving carbs again. Could that have set me off? Up until then I hadn't had one in over a week and I used to eat them daily.

Here's the ingredient list... also I did NOT realize they had sugar and wheat in them... what is wrong with me?? Wow, I'm actually sitting here shocked by the ingredients... I freaking check everything, how did this get past me?? And I was eating these all the time! lesson learned!

Ingredients... Proto WheV- protein blend (Micro Peptides from High-DH hydrolyzed whey protein [40% di and tripeptides], whey protein isolate, milk protein isolate), palm oil, enriched flour (wheat flour, malted barley flour, niacin, reduced iron, thiamine mononitrate, riboflavin, folic acid), sugar, canola oil, dextrose, natural flavors, soy lecithin, annatto, sea salt, sucralose, cocoa processed with alkali, baking soda, ammonium bicarbonate, stevia leaf extract

Thursday, January 18, 2018

Thursday Weigh-In - January 18th - Thirty-Two Weeks Low Carb/Keto With Some "Off-Plan" Days and Some Food Thoughts

Thursday Weigh-In - January 18th:
01/18/2018:                  -2.0 pounds
Total lost:                     67.6  pounds
Current Weight:          162.4 pounds

Yes!! I'm down 2 pounds this week and I'm starting to feel great! I've been doing strict keto for 8 days now (under 25 net grams of carbs but up until today I kept it at 18 and under) and my hard work is paying off on the scale and on how I feel.

I have more energy again (as you can tell from the workout posts), I'm more awake, more alert and the cravings are subsiding (although not completely gone).

I'm now only 2.8 lbs over my pre-holiday weight and hopefully that will be gone within the next two weeks and I can get back to getting closer to my goal weight.

I actually expected being this strict with my carbs to be harder but not only am I not missing the extra carbs but I'm actually eating healthier (the protein bars are now a rare treat). I still need to work on replacing my protein shakes with real food but I'm taking this one step at a time. And my short--term goal is still 160 but I need to hit 159.5 pounds to finally be under the weight I was before Christmas came around.

I also had coffee without any sweetener for the first time ever today and it still tastes good! I'm considering that a victory in my book! I can't believe I used to drink it from Dunkin Donuts with extra cream and extra sugar! That would make me so sick now!

So... here's the other thing I've been thinking about. I know that low carb/keto is a long-term lifestyle for me and I really hate the concept of cheat days. Food should not be good or evil, nor should it be used as a reward or punishment (something I'm still working on). It's just food and it's part of life but I am AM an addict and I know it.

So my thought last night was to get rid of the concept of cheat days and just consider them "off plan" days from now. That it's not a "cheat" because that's a negative way of looking at the rest of my life but it's more of an indulgence. That concept is good and I'm keeping it.

My second thought last night was to accept the fact that off-plan days will happen and just deal with them and not beat myself up for them... now that concept I am NOT keeping and here is why. As soon as I made that decision and discussed it with the kids and Charles, my brain started whirling away and trying to convince me that, "hey, they're not cheat days anymore and anyone can have an off plan day and tomorrow you're buying groceries so think of all the high carb goodies you can get!"

I could not get my brain to stop telling me this! No matter what I did or how I distracted myself all my brain could focus on was the possibility of an allowed off plan day. So this is not going to work for me right now. At all. I was already craving carbs just by considering them even though I haven't felt a craving in 3-4 days!

Obviously I am addicted more than I thought so I'm taking a step back from all this. I want to keep the concept of "off plan" days versus "cheat" days but they will be carefully planned for and very few and far between. Maybe once or twice a year tops until I hit my goal weight and reevaluate things for maintenance which is still a good 33 pounds away!

And even then I'm staying low carb but maybe upping my carbs back up to 50-80 or so with the extra carbs coming from sweet potatoes and butternut squash, not bread and desserts!

It's just interesting to see how my mind process works. Also, I did do grocery shopping today and I'm happy to say I'm still fully on plan and didn't buy anything my brain was clamoring for last night! Wooo... progress!

Wednesday, January 17, 2018

Wednesday, January 17th Workout - Lauren Gleisberg Optional Beginner Phase: Week 1A: HIIT Cardio Plus Stretch

I am insanely sore and I'm loving it!

I wasn't sure I would have the energy to do cardio today but once I got home from work I just decided to do it and now I'm really glad I did.

I ended up going with a Walk At Home DVD that had boosted miles to make it more like HIIT cardio and feel like I got a really great workout.

Shoulders, abs and short cardio tomorrow!

Lauren Gleisberg Optional Beginner Phase: Week 1A: HIIT Cardio Plus Stretch - 1 hour, 5 minutes

HIIT Cardio: 45 Minutes: “Leslie Sansone's Walk at Home: 5K With a Twist”:
Fitbit info: time: 45 minutes, distance: 2.31, steps: 5,291, calories burned: 328

Full body Stretch with Yoga Moves - 20 Minutes

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

Tuesday, January 16th Workout - Lauren Gleisberg Optional Beginner Phase: Week 1A: Back + Biceps Plus Stretch

Another workout day and I feel great! I'm super sore (especially my triceps and chest from yesterday), not sure I'll be able to lift my arms tomorrow and I'm loving it!

Tomorrow will be cardio day but I can't currently do the planned cardio due to my back and knees so I'll be doing a Walk Away the Pounds DVD but I'm going to make sure I pick one that has "boosted" miles because tomorrow is supposed to be HIIT cardio and the boosted miles is the closest thing I can think of for that.

Lauren Gleisberg Optional Beginner Phase: Week 1A: Back + Biceps Plus Stretch - 1 hour, 8 minutes

Back + Biceps: 48 Minutes

Full body Stretch with Yoga Moves - 20 Minutes

Monday, January 15, 2018

Monday, January 15th Workout - Lauren Gleisberg Optional Beginner Phase: Week 1A: Chest + Triceps + Abs Plus Stretch

Yes! I finally picked the plan I want and actually followed through and worked out and I feel amazing! What a great workout and my triceps feels like jello!

I ended up modifying both of the abs moves for my back but I was able to do everything else and I was shocked to actually hold my first plank (out of 3) for 95 seconds (the 2nd plank as 85 seconds and the 3rd was 80 seconds) after not working out for quiet a few weeks!

But, due to the fact that these workouts are created by someone other than me and they have to be purchased (for an really low and great price btw) I can't post all the details on my blog or Instagram like I normally do so I'll just include the basics.

And I'm really looking forward to working out again tomorrow!

Also, the reason the workout took so long this time is because I had a hard time figuring out what weight resistance band to use for one tricep exercise and how to position it correctly. I got it by the end but messing with the bands and having to constantly stop and readjust what I was doing added at least an extra 10 minutes to the plan!

Lauren Gleisberg Optional Beginner Phase: Week 1A: Chest + Triceps + Abs Plus Stretch - 1 hour, 30 minutes

Chest + Triceps + Abs: 1 hour, 10 Minutes

Full body Stretch with Yoga Moves - 20 Minutes

Motivational Monday

Sunday, January 14, 2018

Day Four Keto and Workout Plan Thoughts

I made it to Day 4 keto and so far so good!

The last three days my net carbs have been under under 20 grams (15, 15, and 18) and today is planned for 15. My fat intake has also been way up (to actually reach my macros) and that's helping to keep me feeling really full. Even my sugar macros are down, from about 14-17 grams a day to 7-8!

Of course yesterday was Day 3 which, as always, was awful, but I prevailed! I think the things making the biggest difference right now is planning all my meals out the night before so I know exactly what I'll be eating when and taking my protein bars out of the menu lineup all together. I plan on still having them sometimes but more of a treat or a back up emergency if I absolutely can't get to any other food.

Now that that I have food mostly under control it's time to face working out. For several weeks now I've been waffling back and forth on what I want to follow for a program. I really love the Lauren Gleisberg workouts (I've talked about them before) and I fully planned on following them as of yesterday but the more I look them over, the more I see things I would have to modify due to my back and my knees, so I think I changed my mind and will stick to my self-created Push/Pull/Legs/Abs A-G workout for several rotations and see what happens.

But I may still change my mind and go with the Lauren Gleisberg ones when I'm done researching all the moves that concern me so nothing is decided yet.

I really wanted to start today but my head hurts very badly so we'll see as I go.

Basically, like the quote above states, I need to start with a plan I know I can stick with and I'm still trying to figure out what that is.

Anyway, the point is, as long as I'm doing something, I'll be good because I've been doing nothing for weeks and I'm sick of it!

Thursday, January 11, 2018

Thursday Weigh-In - January 11th - Thirty-One Weeks Low Carb/Keto With Cheat Days

Thursday Weigh-In - January 11th:
01/11/2018:                  -1.0 pounds
Total lost:                     65.6  pounds
Current Weight:          164.4 pounds

I'm down a pound and I'll happily take it! This is also 34.2 lbs down since officially restarting in June of 2017. My short-term goal is still 160 lbs.

Now, today was supposed to be day 5 cheat free and, in a way, it would be but I got incredibly hungry last night after I was done logging in for the night so I ended up having an additional protein bar and a piece of chocolate and some other stuff, so while they weren't actually cheat foods I did end up with my net carbs at 62 which is way, way, way higher than my plan so I'm restarting my day 1 cheat free count today just because that's what feels right to me. It wasn't a cheat day but it also wasn't on plan and I'd rather count the on-plan days.

I'm also NOT restarting everything over or stopping my count from June like I talked about in the previous blog. I'm just restarting the "cheat-free" count. I hope that makes sense.

My other really big plan for this week is that I want to drop my daily carb amounts by about 10 net grams for each day which basically means replacing a protein bar with something "real" like meat, cheese, veggies, some fat, etc. I want to go from mostly net carbs of mid-30's every day to mid 20's-lower 20's and see what happens with my weight and my headaches (which don't want to go away).

I'm also putting all the protein bars in the downstairs freezer so it would be harder for me to get to them. This week I'm replacing one bar a day, next week I'll tackle something else (or keep working on the one bar depending on how it goes). I need to take this thing step by step!

I think that's pretty much it for today but I'm really looking forward to seeing what a lower carb plan will bring to my health and weight!

Tuesday, January 9, 2018

Rethinking My Tracking Days and More

Okay, so I've been thinking a lot about this and about how long I've been on the low carb/keto plan and how I kept restarting to Day One in January, and here's what I've come up with.

I am going back to my original tracking day of 215 days in a row (which I have tracked, more or less, even when cheating) instead of starting over with Day 1 because I cheated several times. I will also continue to track the days I don't cheat in a row and include them in the blog count.

I am doing this because this is a journey and a marathon and it's part of my life and just because I had cheat days and faltered doesn't mean I have to start over and over and over again. Sometimes there will be mistakes, sometimes (not that I have any planned because I don't) there will be an occasional cheat day, sometimes there will be exercise and sometimes I'll be a slug, but none that means that I have to restart the tracking count each and every time.

This is my life. This is how things are. Nothing will ever be perfect and it just makes more sense to me to blog about it and talk about it rather than recounting the days because it is what it is and the journey won't always be perfect.

So, I'm going to pick up from here and probably rework my previous blog posts to have them make more sense.

As of today this puts me at 215 days logging on My Fitness Pal and currently 3 days cheat free!

Sunday, January 7, 2018

Emotional Eating, Cheat Days and Starting Fresh Again!

So... yesterday was a complete and total failure. I can't get into details as to why at this time but, like I posted yesterday, I medicated with carbs and it was a bad, bad idea.

It didn't help the way I hoped it would (and the way it used to about a year ago) and it made me very, very sick. Of course no one is actually surprised by that turnout but it is what it is.

The only thing that was okay from the whole event is that, somehow, my weight did not go up and I'm not longer craving carbs and sugar at this time. In fact, the thought of them is making me feel like throwing up :/

So I decided to start over with Day 1 today. I considered not starting over and just continuing to count days but I know me and I know my brain and I know that if I have the precedent of "I already had one cheat day" that it would lead to "Oh, I had one, I can have another one..." the next time I have a hard time and I don't want to do that.

I really want to (and need to) get back to no cheating at all so, once again, that's the plan from here on out and if I have to start over again today to make it happen then so be it.

The big thing working on my favor is that in the past week I had already started to say that even though I had a 6-day free for all after my Christmas cheat, it sill felt worth it so maybe I could do it again next Christmas (not a good idea no matter what angle you look at it from), but yesterday made me feel so freaking sick that I can honestly say it was NOT worth it and I really don't want to repeat it again.

For the way I think, that's great and that's what's likely to stop me the next time the urge hits!

I did go back and reread my blog for several weeks after I started no cheating in June and it looks like I'll have it under control by about Day 10. Day 3 will be the worst (it always is) but the cravings may hang around a bit longer but, back in June, by day 10 I was doing awesome and not craving the carbs at all!

The other thing I changed is that, right now, an award every 30 days is too far away, so, instead, I'm going to do a small reward every 5 days until I feel like I can stretch it better. The plan now is that for every 5 days I don't cheat I will put $5 into the envelope for "new clothes to buy when I hit my goal weight." That's basically what I'll need when I get to that point anyway lol.

Tomorrow is my birthday and we'll be making a keto dessert for it... wooohoo.

So here's to Day 1! Let's make it happen!!

Saturday, January 6, 2018

Medicating With Carbs

Today I'm medicating with carbs. I know it's not a good idea but it is what it is, I can't really get into the details of "why" and I really don't want to talk about it.

But tomorrow is a new day and a brand new start and that's how I'm going to look at it.

Once of these days it's bound to stick like it did in June and I know I'll get there again. I just need to keep trying.

Thursday, January 4, 2018

Thursday Weigh-In - January 4th - Thirty Weeks Low Carb/Keto With Cheat Days


Thursday Weigh-In - January 4th:
01/04/2018:                  +1.8 pounds
Total lost:                     64.6  pounds
Current Weight:          165.4 pounds

So, today is Day 4 of no cheating and it's going pretty well. I'm still up over last week's weight from my cheat break but I have no plans on cheating at all any time soon. I don't want to say I'll never eat food with a lot of sugar and simple carbs but definitely not for a very, very, very long time.

Yesterday was difficult, especially yesterday afternoon because Day 3 is always the worst but I'm past it now and it should hopefully get easier from here on out.

My goals now are to continue with my weight loss and to start working out again this week. I have several different plans I am considering following and one of these days I'll actually pick one but I'm not sure which one, we'll see! As long as I'm following someone for a while, I think I'll be okay!

My other big goal is to add actual, homemade food back into my plan (especially veggies) and cut way back on the protein bars and protein shakes. It'll take some planning but I know I can do it!

I also have a day long Yoga, nutrition and Eastern medicine thing that I'm attending on Sunday so that should be really good too.

So, basically, I'm back on track with food and happy to be there!