Thursday Weigh-In - June 28th:
06/28/2018: -1.8 pounds
Lost Since 01/29/18 Restart -12.4 pounds
Total lost Since 06/29/15: -70.4 pounds
Current Weight: 159.6 pounds
Days Cheat-Free: 151 days
So the extra, unexpected weight is coming off which is great but I'm still 2.2 lbs away from my plateau weight and it's basically the same weight I've been losing and gaining on and off since April. This is getting really frustrating and I realize I need to stop focusing on the scale but I'm not sure how to do that right now.
I did make one huge change this week because I've started using a glucose/ketone monitor (I need to write a blog post on that) and I found that my protein bars messed up my glucose and ketones and the protein shakes spiked my glucose so both of those are officially out of my eating plan.
I've been eating "real" food for the last five days (including today). I had my last protein bar 7 days ago and my last protein shake 6 days ago. It does make coming up with food more difficult because now I have to plan ahead and get it ready instead of just grabbing something fast but it's a lot healthier and should hopefully get me back on the road to getting into ketosis and maybe losing more weight? I don't know.
Sometimes I just want to be done with all of this. I'm so tired of counting and weighing and measuring and tracking and having to plan out meals ahead of time and make sure they fit my calories and all my macros and get them ready and just... I don't know. Sometimes I just get really tired of the whole thing.
I wish I could just eat whatever, whenever and still feel great and not gain weight back but I know that's not possible for me. I just wish that it was.
Also, yesterday was 150 days cheat free but I'm not really excited about that for some reason. I just feel tired and down instead of happy or excited that I hit that goal.
I'll post the 150 day tank top when it gets here but that could be a few more weeks.
And now I'm going back to studying so I can stop thinking about all this.