I've posted many, many Day One posts (so many that I've lost track by now), started and stopped and started and stopped, went back on forth on my workouts with far more days off than on and generally have just been really struggling.
I've been wanting to get back on track for a long time now but I just wasn't feeling the keto thing at all no matter how badly I wanted to and it shows on the scale, in how my clothes fit (or rather, don't fit), how out of shape I am now, my loss of muscle tone and my general unhappiness with where I am with my body and mind.
Now, I know keto isn't the end-all and I know it's not for everyone but I also know it's the absolute best thing for me for my physical and mental health, my weight, my body and just my life in general. It is what keeps the migraines and fibromyalgia pain at bay. It is what keeps my weight in check, my binging away and my mind and body feeling great. It's what I need to do for my health in every way, shape and form.
So I'm done waiting to "feel" it again. All I'm doing is making myself sick and weak and unhappy. I've spent that last several days thinking and planning, rereading my old blog posts from when I was "feeling it" and was successful, talking with other ketoers and generally trying to get myself back on track and I have a plan. An actual plan. Not another "today is day one and it will happen this time" but an actual plan I will be following.
I've already got exercise under control and am back to working out and loving it so that's covered. What I really need to focus on is the diet part of my life so here goes...
I'm going back to what I know works for me but I'm breaking down into hours, days and weeks.
Week one: this starts tomorrow and I've started prepping by fasting since noon today. I plan to do a 24-hour fast which will work out great since I'll just be getting back home from grocery shopping around noon tomorrow and that means I can stock up on healthy food!
Anyway, week one. My only goals for week one are to stay under 35 net grams of carbs daily, weigh, measure and track my food and post my macro breakdown on my Insta at the end of every day. This will make me accountable for my food because I know I will be posting the numbers. I also did this when I restarted back in January and it worked really well for me!
I don't care what kind of food I'm eating in week one. It could be a variety of healthy stuff or it could be quick keto foods or even processed keto stuff. I don't care. The only goal for this week is to get into and stay in ketosis and within my macros.
I'm also going back to intermittent fasting starting with the 16:8 window: 16 hours fasting and 8 hours eating. Eventually I'll extend that but 16:8 isn't hard for me and I'm used to it so I'm not too worried about it.
Week two: continue everything I did in week one but add one healthy veggie a day into one meal. Any veggie (low carb of course) will do. It could be the same one every day or something new, it doesn't matter.
Week three: continue everything in from the first two weeks and add a second veggie as well as choose one processed food (protein bars or shakes) and cut them back by one serving a week.
Week four: continue previous weeks, add more fresh food, cut out another processed food/meal and add one new recipe for the week.
By the time I hit week four (or maybe even week three) I should have this keto thing firmly back in my control and if not I'll continue the weekly plan as I go.
As always there will be no cheat days at least until Christmas and there will be rewards every 25 days as before. In fact, in order to inspire myself I've already picked out my first tank-top reward and now I have to earn it.
Obviously if things go well I can move the schedule up. For all I know I'll be ready to drop the processed foods faster or add in a lot more veggies or try new recipes in earlier weeks, the point is that I'm breaking it down into a clear and doable schedule where I won't feel completely overwhelmed out and out of control.
Yes, the keto flu will suck again and I know I'll have to detox again but I'm okay with this. What I'm not okay with is making new starts every day and failing. I'm not okay with my clothes getting tighter and tighter. I'm not okay with migraines and fibro flares where touching my skin feels like you're punching me. What I'm not okay is feeling like a failure because I can't stick to the plan.
That's what it comes down to. I'm tired of making starts and failing every day. I'm not a failure and I refuse to continue feeling like this.
What and how I eat, how and when I work out, whether I win or fail, it's all in my control. Only mine. And I am so ready to take it back!
Let's do this!