Sunday, October 21, 2018

The Past Week of the October Yoga Challenge Photos!

The third week of the October yoga challenge was great! I enjoyed all the poses, except one (the freaking crow pose) and I was able to make really great progress with my camel pose! Can't wait to see what this coming week brings!

Day Fifteen October Yoga Challenge - Crow Pose (Bakasana). Modified with yoga blocks and one one foot off the ground. 

Day Sixteen October Yoga Challenge - Half Moon Pose (Ardha Chandrasana). Modified with yoga blocks.

Day Seventeen October Yoga Challenge - Camel Pose (Ustrasana).

Day Eighteen October Yoga Challenge - Wide-Legged Forward Bend/Fold Pose (Prasarita Padottanasana).

Day Nineteen October Yoga Challenge - High Lunge Pose (Utthita Ashwa Sanchalasana).

Day Twenty October Yoga Challenge - One Legged Bridge Pose (Setu Bandha Sarvangasana). 

Day Twenty-One October Yoga Challenge - Standing Forward Bend/Fold Pose (Uttanasana).

Friday, October 19, 2018

100 Days of Keto Challenge - Day Forty - Weigh-In Four!


I'm only down 0.2 lbs in the last ten days and I'm actually happy with it.  I broke the pattern in these last ten days by weighing in more often and I'm glad I did because if I'd gotten on the scale for the first time today and saw such a small loss I would have probably been devastated, but since I was mentally ready for a gain, this number was a pleasant surprise!

The scale had shown a gain this past week every time that I got on it so I was fully prepared to see a gain this morning. I didn't cheat, I didn't go over my calories, I drank all my water... so what went wrong?

Well, it took me a little while but I finally figured it out a couple of days ago! In this last 10-day round of the keto challenge I added the Isopure protein powder back in and was making home made protein shakes and hoping for the best and that had to be it. They've stalled me before, they definitely bloated me and that's the only thing I've done differently.

I know it was stupid to keep trying them when I pretty much know what the outcome will be but I was hoping that if I tried them in smaller amounts with no Atkins shakes at all and without the digestive enzymes (which made me really sick) that maybe they would work.

I guess I was wrong. My body just can't handle them. And that would explain the bloating that seemed to come out of nowhere.

So, no more Isopure shakes again for good this time (and, yes, I've said that before but I mean it this time). I also have not been buying Atkins shakes and have almost fully cut them out of my food plan replacing them with actual food like chicken.

And, on the plus side, I'm back in the 160's so I'm good with that. I also didn't lose any inches at all this week, but I think some of that is coming from the bloating from the shakes plus that should improve once I start working out again tomorrow.

Right now my goal is to shoot for working out wherever I can fit it in. I printed my at-home weight training plan but it could also easily be done at the gym so I'm going to work out wherever I have time to workout. Some days will be at home, some days will be at the gym and I'm tried of obsessing about it. As long as I do something somewhere I'll be happy.

My goals for the next round of 10 days are to continue to eat healthy with no cheating, do one 24-hour fast and get back to regular workouts. I'm also not going to only weigh-in every ten days anymore because, due to where I am mentally right now, I can't handle the not knowing.

100-Days of Keto Challenge 4th 10-Day Check-In Numbers:

Weight:
169.8 lbs

Total Weight Lost in 4th 10 Days of Challenge:
-0.2 lbs

Total Weight Lost in 40 Days of Challenge:
-6.4 lbs

Measurements:              Change from 10/09/2018 
Waist: 35 inches                        (- 0.0 inches)
Hips: 39 inches                         (- 0.0 inches)
Bust: 39 inches                          (- 0.0 inches)
Chest: 33.5 inches                     (- 0.0 inches)
Right arm: 12.25 inches             (-0.0 inches)
Left arm:  12.25 inches               (-0.0 inches)   
Right thigh: 23.25 inches           (- 0.0 inches)
Left thigh: 22.75 inches             (- 0.0 inches)
Right calf: 15.25 inches               (-0.0 inches)
Left calf:   15.25 inches               (-0.0 inches)
Jeans Size: size 8                          (no change)

Total Inches Lost in 4th 10 Days of Challenge:
-0.0 inches

Total Inches Lost in 40 Days of Challenge:
-12 inches

Thursday, October 18, 2018

Again... It Crept In When I Wasn't Watching...

"...I feel just like I'm sinking
and I claw for solid ground.
I'm pulled down by the undertow.
I never thought I could feel so low.
Oh darkness I feel like letting go..."
           ~Sarah Mclachlan's "Full of Grace"

... and I didn't realize it was here until it was too late to cut it off at the pass. Again, there was no way to stop it. Again, in the fall, like the year before and the year before that and the year before that.

Again, depression steals everything from me... my positivity, my plans, my hopes, my dreams... the world is gray and cold. Everything is harder to do, like I am slogging through the mud, like my legs are made of cement, like the ground itself is pulling me down into the dark void that just waits for me with open arms.

Again, food doesn't taste good, music doesn't sound right, my interest in the world, nature, exercise, health, weight loss, family, creativity and everything I normally love fades away until there's a wall between myself and the things I once loved to do.

Again, it didn't have the decency to to come out and tell me it was coming. I should have expected it and I should have been ready but I wasn't. It rolled in like the fog, circling slowly, higher and higher, until suddenly I was coated and I can't seem to find a way back to whom I was before.

Again, it doesn't matter how hard I try. It doesn't matter how positive I try to stay. It doesn't matter that life is going well and there's no reason why I shouldn't be happy. It just is what it is.

And now, now that it's here, I can finally look back and see the build up that I wish I could have seen as it happened... slowly, brick by brick, step by step, away from the me I want to be to the me I tried to hold back with therapy and medication and hope.

Again, there is nothing more I can do but call my psychiatrist and my therapist and wait until they have the time to see me and go back to juggling medications and talking until something clicks and it recedes again like the tide, leaving me finally free to breathe again.

Depression steals everything from me.

Everything.

And no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, I never know how long it will be until it's finally gone again.

Sunday, October 14, 2018

The Past Week of the October Yoga Challenge Photos!

The second week of the October yoga challenge was awesome! I had some great poses, including my absolute favorite tree pose that I hadn't done in a while, and I was happy to still be able to get almost all the poses outside! Can't wait to see what this coming week brings!

Day Eight October Yoga Challenge - Chair Pose (Utkatasana)

Day Nine October Yoga Challenge - Extended Hand-To-Big-Toe Pose (Utthita Hasta Padangustasana)

Day Ten October Yoga Challenge - Tree Pose (Vriksasana)

Day Eleven October Yoga Challenge - Plow Pose (Halasana)

Day Twelve October Yoga Challenge - Warrior I Pose (Virabhadrasana I)

Day Thirteen October Yoga Challenge - Upward-Facing Dog Pose (Urdhu Mukha Sanasana)

Day Fourteen October Yoga Challenge - Standing Back Bend Pose (Anuvittasana)

Tuesday, October 9, 2018

100 Days of Keto Challenge - Day Thirty - Weigh-In Three!


I'm down 1.6 lbs in the last ten days and I'm happy with it! I know I worked really hard, I know I stuck to the plan, I know there was no cheating so, basically, I did my best and this is a good number. I realize I was really upset at my last weigh-in with almost the same result but this time I was prepared for the number that came up so my attitude and reaction were completely different.

Also, with this weigh-in I'm officially down 60 lbs again and I know I'll be back in the 160's next time around. Slow and steady wins the race, right?

I'm also a couple of inches smaller all around and I'm really happy with that as well. Plus this means that I'm down a total of 6.2 lbs and 12 inches in the last 30 days and that's not bad at all.

I've made some really great progress this past week with healthy keto food and with getting enough protein and I'm hoping I'll be feeling the results from that soon. I'm still very limited in my workouts due to my back but I have a training session with my new trainer on Friday so I'm really looking forward to that.

My goals for the next round of 10 days are to continue to eat healthy with no cheating, do one 24-hour fast and start working out with my trainer.

100-Days of Keto Challenge 3rd 10-Day Check-In Numbers:

Weight:
170 lbs

Total Weight Lost in 3rd 10 Days of Challenge:
-1.6 lbs

Total Weight Lost in 30 Days of Challenge:
-6.2 lbs

Measurements:              Change from 9/29/2018 
Waist: 35 inches                        (- 0.5 inches)
Hips: 39 inches                         (- 0.5 inches)
Bust: 39 inches                          (- 0.5 inches)
Chest: 33.5 inches                     (- 0.5 inches)
Right arm: 12.25 inches             (-0.0 inches)
Left arm:  12.25 inches               (-0.0 inches)       
Right thigh: 23.25 inches           (- 0.25 inches)
Left thigh: 22.75 inches             (- 0.25 inches)
Right calf: 15.25 inches               (-0.0 inches)
Left calf:   15.25 inches               (-0.0 inches)
Jeans Size: size 8                          (no change)

Total Inches Lost in 3rd 10 Days of Challenge:
-2.5 inches

Total Inches Lost in 30 Days of Challenge:
-12 inches

Sunday, October 7, 2018

The Past Week of the October Yoga Challenge Photos!

The first week of the October yoga challenge went great! I enjoyed the poses I was doing, especially my all time favorite Boat Pose, and am looking forward to the next week of poses. The weather has been chilly and rainy so I've had to do more poses indoors but I was able to get a about half of them outside and will keep that up as long as I can!

Day One OctoberYoga Challenge - Revolved Head-to-Knee Pose (Parivrtta Janu Sirsasana)

Day Two OctoberYoga Challenge - Corpse Pose (Savasana)

Day Three OctoberYoga Challenge - Officially Upward Bow Pose but due to my back issue I did the Bridge pose (Setu Bandha Sarvangasana) in it's place

Day Four OctoberYoga Challenge - Intense Side Stretch Pose (Parsvottanasana)

Day Five OctoberYoga Challenge - Bow Pose (Dhanurasana)

Day Six OctoberYoga Challenge - Boat Pose (Navasana)

Day Seven OctoberYoga Challenge - Easy Pose (Sukhasana)

Saturday, October 6, 2018

Workout and Keto Plans, Changes and Updates...

Once again, it's been a while since I've written so let's get to some updates.

1) I've hired the trainer at my gym who I worked with a few months ago to help me rehab my back and find a workout where I won't be getting hurt over and over again.

This means that, for the most part, I'll be working out at the gym again (which I'm really looking forward too) and I'm not planning my own workouts at this time. My back hasn't been improving at all this week, I'm in pain every day and I can't do much for exercise so I'm sucking it up and handing things over to someone who is more knowledgeable and has much more experience than I do.

I need to work on my injury, on my form, on building up my core and back and on being safe during functional, daily movements all of which will be part of the plan. My first session with him is on Friday (I'm signing up for six sessions which should hopefully get me on the right track) and in the meantime I can work on my core and on my yoga (depending on the pose).

I'd also like to get back to doing 10,000 steps a day but we'll see how well my back can handle that. I have a lot of work to do on myself in order to keep myself injury free and train others properly but I'm ready for it.

2) I'm switching up my food plan a bit. It was suggested to me that I stop doing keto and eat carbs before a workout to fuel my body but I'm not just doing keto to lose weight. It helps with so much more beyond weight loss and it controls my fibrolmyalgia, my migraines and my binging so I'm staying keto but I am making it a lot healthier with a focus on the right amounts of macros and nutrition, especially protein which I'm always coming up short on.

My goal is to get as much of that protein from food as I can but to also reintroduce protein shakes (real protein shakes with protein powder, almond milk and a couple of other things instead of Atkins shakes) to make up whatever difference I have left over after the food. For some reason protein is the hardest macro for me to hit so it'll take some work but, once again, I'm ready for it.

I'm also getting really serious about making sure I get healthy food to fuel my body like fish or chicken and veggies rather than a protein bar. We went to the grocery store and stocked up on enough healthy things to make several days of meals and then we'll go from there.

I also don't disagree that more carbs before a workout could be beneficial so I'm thinking of moving my carb amounts from whenever I happen to eat them to structuring them specifically to be before a workout with more protein afterward. Once again, this will take work and planning but if it's good for me and helps me then why not try it.

I'm not adding in more carbs (although I can go up higher than I've been, taking in something like 40 net rather than 28 net just as an example) but I'm making sure they're the healthiest ones I can get that still fit into my plan.

3) I'm heading into week five of my internship and I'm doing well. I love training my internship client and while I have the ability to correct her form and make sure she's safe, that doesn't seem to translate to doing it on myself, probably because its harder on yourself. But I know what the issues are and how to deal with them so now I just need to correct them.

Tomorrow I'm meeting with one of my internship gym trainers to work on foam rolling and more assessments and that should help me a lot with my future training!

4) I'm at the end of Day 27 of the keto challenge and doing really well with it. I weigh in this coming Tuesday and am hoping to see some kind of loss. Not cheating is going well and I have that pretty much handled so now my focus switches more to making my food healthier and more filling with the proper nutrient amounts!

I think that covers it for now but I'll work on updating this blog more often as the days go by!

Monday, October 1, 2018

Changing the Workout Plan


I hate to do this because I was really enjoying the Lauren Gleisberg workout plan but what I haven't been mentioning is that my back has slowly been hurting more and more with each workout day and today it was done. I managed a few minutes of the warm-up and had to stop and put heat on my back.

I don't know what it is about how I do her workouts that set off my back but I obviously need to stop doing them so I'm going back to my own Push/Pull/Legs/Abs A-G workout because that one does NOT set off my back and has exercises programmed into it specifically to strengthen my back and core.

And like I posted before, I've gotten great results with my own workout and I'll be able to post the exercises details and what weights I'm using for them.

I'm really hoping to be able to start it up tomorrow and if not then as soon as my back is good enough to handle it!

Motivational Monday


I need to remind myself of this every day!