For one thing, I knew I had some off days. Between the fibromyalgia pain, headaches and poor food choices I knew it would be up and thanks to the first two I wasn't able to work out like I wanted too so I take full responsibility for overeating.
But, here is where the positive to this comes in: once I realized that I would have a gain this week my first reaction was to freak out, decide to binge and then start my weekly count all over again which is my typical reaction but I was able to stop myself from reacting and actually think.
1) I did not actually want to binge and I did NOT binge which is huge for me.
2) I talked myself through these thoughts and realized that if I were to start over again every single time I gained back some weight that I would constantly be starting over because weight gain happens even on the best of weeks.
3) I'm not perfect and I never will be! Some weeks I'll do great with food and have a loss but some weeks I'll have off weeks and show a gain and that is how the weight loss journey works! It's taken me a very, very long time to accept that but I finally can and it feels amazing because now I don't have to freak out and panic every time the scale goes up. I'm not "bad" if the scale goes up and I'm not "good" if it goes down. I'm just me.
Yes, I obviously want to get back to the "on" days but I'm considering this past week to be one full of lessons for me.
And, like I said earlier, I didn't binge. I had more calories and carbs than I had planned for but it wasn't binging, it was just eating and that's another huge step that I've taken.
I was also able to start working out yesterday and I plan to keep it up for as long as I can because it makes me feel amazing and I can't wait to see some muscle definition again! And I'm still doing great with eating vegetables!
So, this past week has had some hiccups but I'm hoping this coming week goes much smoother and I can finally get back into the 180's again!